former trans identified female

I am an owned 34 year old former trans identified female. I "transitioned" at 16 and stayed that way until 34. My beliefs about this are not very politically correct, but I'll gladly talk respectfully about it in DMs (as in, I'll be respectful of differing beliefs and hope that you'll respect mine as well).

I am partway through being detransitioned by my Owner.

I wear women's clothes 100% of the time. I take estrogen and a prenatal vitamin. I still "feel trans" but have decided to fully identify as a straight cis woman. I have not socially detransitioned, because it's a kind of complicated situation, but that is likely in my future.

Also, was in the ER on Monday/Tuesday because I hurt myself sounding and needed emergency surgery lol.

Anyway I'm feeling super horny and super needy if anyone wants to chat on here, discord (same username), or session (DM for code).

Discord: toastedblacksesame

It's one thing to ask clarifying questions to make sure someone is okay and not in a dangerous situation, it's another to essentially accuse their dominant partner of a serious crime because of a fucking blog post.

There are things my dominant partner has asked me to do that, for various reasons, I have simply refused or "failed" to do. They're pretty few, of course, but why is that? Because I have a dominant partner who understands what I'm willing and able to do, not because I've been abused into thinking I actually have no choice. In fact, the vast majority of what happens in my D/s relationship comes from ideas I introduced, not him.

I'm the one who told him I have a starvation kink and practically BEGGED him to control what I eat. I'm the one who said "Maybe I should only own women's clothes." I'm the one who said "Here are the things I want to be 'forced' to do 'against my will.'" I'm not parroting the mainstream BDSM line of "Actually, the submissive partner has all the real power," but rather that I have CHOSEN to hand all the power over to the dominant partner.

At the end of the day, I have the ability to take back my finances, to buy men's clothes, to eat as much of anything as I want. I am making the CHOICE to do all of the things that I'm doing. I am living this way because I WANT to.

Jesus Christ, do you realize that I'm a fully grown adult? That I can stop doing what I'm doing any time I want? People safely fast for days at a time, and there are freaks out there who drink their own urine religiously because they think it has magical healing properties.

I'm the one who introduced this type of "play" into my D/s relationship. I'm the one who proposed it. My dominant partner is literally just giving me the orders I said I wanted him to give. And it's all 100% self-enforced by me. No one is observing me like a hawk and physically withholding food from me.

While looking for high heels to buy, I saw a pair with butterflies on the straps and thought "Oh, that's cute."

And later, I saw a gif of a girl getting fucked and thought "I want to be pretty like her."

These feelings were brief, but I think they're a really good sign. I think I need to encourage these feelings. I choose to identify as a cis woman because I think that's what's right (I remind myself that there is nothing I could ever do to my body that would make me become a Man), but I still "feel trans" almost all of the time.

My Owner is also having me start taking prenatal vitamins and using estrogen cream. I start the estrogen tonight.

It's what Men want from me.

And I have a deep need to make Men happy.

My username there is inferiorftm