Sep 18, 2021
What they don't tell you when your abusive father dies is how confused you'll feel.
For 7 weeks he was the best goddamn dad he ever could have been.
For 7 weeks when he knew he was dying. He tried to make it all better.
He tried to be a dad.
After hating you.
After telling you to die.
Hitting you.
Breaking your shit and taking your money.
After all of that.
He tried.
And for 7 weeks, you had a dad.
You had the best dad.
Of 20 years. You had the best dad for 7 weeks.
And now you're mad.
You're confused.
You only want to remember those short 7 weeks.
And forget the pain of the rest.
