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1. No one cares about your mental illness when it comes to school or your job. Teacher don’t care if you were too depressed to do your homework because you spend the whole night crying. Your boss won’t understand why you look like a zombie because you couldn’t sleep at night. Even if they know about your issues. For them, you just have to do and work.

2. If people or friends see there’s something wrong with you and ask you to tell them all, “they will understand it”. No, they won’t. They will tell you it gets better and when they still see you after weeks in the same situation, they get annoyed or try to change topics so you won’t talk about it.

3. Trust no one but yourself. Whenever it comes to a fight with your friend/boyfriend/girlfriend/parent etc. they will use your mental illness against you. Like “it’s because you’re always so negative” “it’s because you never eat” “it’s your fault because you never accept other people”. Maybe they will apologize but they already said it.

4. People won’t see your mental illness as a mental illness. They will always find another reason for your actions.

5. Your mental illness affects your body. And here I’m not only talking about an ED. Depression makes your skin dry and pale. Your eyes look like they got less pigments. The sun is more blinding. Your nails grow slower. Your skin is not strong but looks chubbier. More water weight, your hair is less shinier and so much more.

6. You get surprised and suspicious when something good happens. Like you think I’m the next minute the good situation will turn into the baddest ever even if it doesn’t.

7. You’re happy about little gifts. Even if it’s just a cookie or a coffee. You’re happy like a little child.

8. You get a lot of flashbacks in unusual moments.

9. Every clothes you’re buying looks only good on the first, the other day you think it looks ugly but only on you.

10. People can’t relate to your social anxiety because they go out everyday but it’s ridiculous for them that you’re scared to go even at your phone or pay anything in the supermarket