pantelina

i honestly dont know how where to start if im honest.

so much happened over the last 3-4 years since i properly posted here. Some of you may have followed me on my “recovery” ig so you probs know a lot but i stopped posting there in like a year because something happened + it was such a triggering and competitive platform for me.

I’ll start with few recent events and if you have q’s please send specific questions and ill answer!!

I was discharged from an EDU in Ldn in April and it was one of the most traumatic hospital experiences that didnt help me to the slightest. My headspace is still the same but because im terrified of hospitals even more now im managing (surprising) to maintain my discharge weight. No follow ups though, no gp appointments and no therapy. Kinda glad though cause i needed a break but suicidality is sneaking in and most days i feel like im holding on by a threat. Really want to go to private therapy again but as im classified as disabled here (at least till May were they will review it), im getting minimum money from gov and with the deflation im barely getting by. Started a fundraising embroidery socials and trying to raise so money from there. Tomorrow ive got an assessment from disability services in order to find me a job that fits my needs (times per week/ hours per day/ strengths etc) + from tomorrow id officially be a columnist in T’s website writting mental health articles as a psychologists and getting paid!!

dont jknow if anyone is still active on here or remembers me.

im in need of an outlet and thinking of coming back here.

Hey!