Rebel

It's difficult for me to even think about that you'll leave One day.

So I'm leaving first, I'll go first.

I'm leaving you behind because I don't want to be left.

I have seen when you open your eyes first thing in the morning.

I remember your voice, I love your voice.

Morning voice, the angry voice.

Your moans. Your face when you moan.

Everything, i remember that.

I have seen you sleep.

I have seen your face close enough that it's difficult to forget.

I have seen your hands, your eyes mole, the scar you have and your birthmark.

How can I ever bear the pain of you leaving.

So I'm leaving first.

Atleast I'm trying.

I didn't mean someone better than me.

I meant someone who will love just the way I did but without the trauma i carry with myself.

Someone who will worship you like I did but without the fear of being left behind.

Someone who will trust you when you say, Yes I still love you.

I can't , I don't deserve your forgiveness.

There's this guy..!!

In my class he was my really good friend of mine...but I fucked up..I told him how I feel about him it's not like I like him I love him or anything...it's just something inside me...that I just want to look at him..I want to see him smiling....!!

I want to protect him from...!!

He pretends that he's happy when he's not..!!

Let them pick those broken pieces of your heart,

They are trying to do there best for you,

Do your best for yourself,

You can do it,

You really can <3