collection of words

when i met you, my panic attacks didn't go away but they became milder somehow,

now after all these past months of being together i started to notice that i haven't had one panic attack so far

i have also written a lot of love poems

sometimes even about people i never loved

just so i could relate to other poets,

i was craving for the words to write but not for another individual in my life.

now you make me feel all the love poems in the world i cannot put into words

your eyes spell the charm of the stars

and my arranged words cannot contain all your magic

but my heart feels the words deeply

words like love

aren't just words anymore.

who knew that the person i loved the most could be a stranger to me.

who knew that you would catch me while i was falling

& who knew that you, the used-to-be stranger, would be the one i always needed?

happiness

&

sadness

but my flowers were already dying of thirst.

so, when he brought the rain with him while entering my life -

i knew it was him who i needed.

but you didn't understand.

desperately searching for the right words

the poem sounded delightful, the words were arranged beautifully.

but every time inauthenticity haunted me.

when i found my current love

the words just spilled out like a waterfall

and not every poem about him is a masterpiece,

but i feel every single word in my soul.