Spookshow Vixens

I can think of two fairly recent pieces of media that did this to me.

The series 'Midnight Mass' on Netflix dredged up a lot of my religious trauma and forced me to feel it all over again. I have so many issues remaining from being raised a closeted Trans Woman in a Catholic household and constantly bombarded by messages of how wrong, sinful and evil queer people are supposed to be.

On the opposite side, the movie 'I Saw The TV Glow' emotionally devastated me with it's message of refusing to admit what you really are, trying to conform to societal expectations and living in silent desperation with the truth reminding you over and over it's never too late to accept the truth about yourself. I walked out of that film utterly numb and feeling like my entire journey from straight male presenting person to sexually fluid Trans Woman was in that story and how awful and desperate I felt denying that part of myself for decades.

This weekend is the 3rd session of the 3rd Chronicle of the Austin Vampire LARP and I am so excited! My character is named Aunt Martha. She's the Malkavian Primogen and a creepy monster. Her whole deal is that she's got an attachment disorder and sees unrelated people as her family. She is utterly devoted to her 'Family' and will do anything for them. She sees the increasingly tyrannical Prince as her nephew. Martha is also a Mistress of Memory alteration and driving people mad with her ability to control minds. She used to use this to insert herself into families and convince them she had always been there, always been their dear Aunt Martha (hence her sobriquet). She also tends to feed on her "family". This is a pic of Martha from the first game where she was 'elected' the Primogen of the Malkavians turned into a meme.

(She is the pool of darkness there) She tends to dress in rather Victorian mourning fashion as her mortal backstory involves having once been a very content Wife and Mother who lost both of her sons to the trenches of the Great War and her husband to the Spanish Flu Epidemic of 1918. This is the root of her issues with finding family. Here is pic of Martha from Game 2.