TinkerJen.. ^^

To My Ever Dearest Jemimah,👶🏼

It was short and sweet and painful. I will forever wonder who you would have been?🧚‍♀️ Maybe a Chef, a Doctor 👩‍🍳 or maybe a Psychie like mommy or a Techie 👩‍🔧 Like daddy.. but i only wish that you'll be a happy baby.

Im sorry my dear jemimah.. my eldest.. i wasn't able to fight for you to live.. if i only had a chance to choose between you and me.. i will always choose you.. i know you will be a loving baby to your daddy Jm.. He loves you like i do.

You will be the kindest baby ever, with a beautiful soul that has a faith like Esther.🔥

We never met but i feel you in my heart and in my soul.. i hope you know how much iloveyou.. and how much i am willing to give everything to you.

I will forever miss you my baby.. You are too beautiful for earth.. ti'll i see you in heaven.. ill hug you sooo tight and kiss you a million times.

Iloveyou forever till eternity. 💋

I dont know, whenever i hear her name.. i dont feel jealous at all.. but theres someting inside of me that tells me that i must envy her.

Whenever people talks about how much you cried for her how much you loved her.. how much you took care of her while you too were together..my heart often whispers "sana ako yun" sana na feel ko din yun dati sayo 11 years back"

But on a 2nd thought, i surely wouldnt allowed it to happen.. coz i would never want to see you cry because of me.. and instead of me thinking you must love me the way you loved her, i will just make myself busy loving you more than ever..

There are still days that i felt that i am not good enough for you.. but it is always overcome by the thought that "hey, im here.. were together" you chose me.. i chose you.. so there must be something special that you saw in me.. though i still cant figure it out..

..and just like that.. i fell for him all over again.. now im questioning myself... after that 7 long years..did i really let go of him when i said I MOVED ON.