Life Simplified

It is heart wrenching to feel lonesome. Everyone has gone or is going through this phase. You cant help but feel lonely. Even in a crowd!  There is no one who seems to fulfill that void in the heart that feels like it weighs a ton. Then what?

There seems like nothing one can do about it. This is when people start to date haphazardly. Does this really help though? No, not in my case. It actually does the opposite. People at this stage rarely care about compatibility. At this point we are desperate for a human touch. When we actually begin to feel emotionally attached to that certain person, they all seem to drift away. 

This is when people begin to second guess themselves.Maybe there's something wrong with me? Why do I end up all alone? In this situation, its impossible to seek help from anyone because of this overbearing self conscious. It seems like every minute we're over criticizing ourselves and feel even more lonely.

Music helped. But it was short term. Then what? Pick up writing? They all seem so depressing and immature! How about taking a long walk at night? Well it was fun until you trip and fall in the dark. NOT COOL!

When you look at the concrete, you see your shadow. Then it all makes sense! You are not really alone. You have your shadow with you. There is so much to do with shadows. Make shadow puppets! They are heap loads of fun. Yes, I know it is kind of silly. But who cares? There is no one to judge.

At least we have shadows. Think about ghosts. They neither have a body, nor a shadow! How sad!

If you have your shadow with you, then why feel lonesome? Just go silly with your shadow. Shadow people do not judge and no longer you will feel lonely.

Simplify your life, its fun.

I woke up the other day feeling very under the weather. The first thing that came into my mind was the word, "purgatory". Talk about feeling grim right? That was just the beginning. As usual, I was getting late for my Monday morning class. So when I got out of my house, I saw a black hearse parked right across the street. I thought it was odd. I paid no further attention to it. Then I began to cross the street. And BAM! out of nowhere, this car came speeding towards me. It seemed like the driver had no intention of stopping. I ran as if there was no tomorrow.

Oh God! I thought that I was going to die that day. That was not the end of my bad luck. I ran to catch my bus. But the kind bus driver thought that I was waving at him when I was actually signalling him to stop the bus. So all he did was wave at me and he continued to drive away.I am not a runner so I was panting as if I was taking my last breath. I failed to realize that there was another person waiting at the bus stop. I was so embarrassed that I could have died on the spot.

Consequently, I got on the bus. After a while, I saw yet another white colored hearse. I thought to myself that I might just die today. I mean look at all the signs! I was beginning to feel paranoid. Then there came an older lady. She took a vacant seat next to me.She took a book out of her bag and removed her bookmark.

There it was! The Teddy Bear Bookmark! There were couple of teddy bears who were chasing one another. It looked absolutely adorable. I did not even realize that I was smiling to myself like an idiot. It literally made me feel lighter. It is hard to describe that feeling with words alone. I mean think about it. Who would like to think about their mortality early in the morning? On a Monday morning. Not me!

Then I just had an AHA! moment. Sometimes even the tiniest, and the most insignificant thing has the ability to alter someone's mood drastically in a matter of seconds. From that point on, I have decided that I will keep my eyes open so that I can see these simple things to make this short life of mine more memorable. It has been five days and I have realized that I am much happier now than I was five days ago.