The Dolly Messiah

i wanna slit my wrists so bad, but i said i'd stop so that i can wear short sleeves and my friend is staying over tonight.. rahhhh

being mentally ill and having a menstrual cycle is so fucking dangerous, cuz why am i looking up ways to kill myself and self isolating because the food i want is round at my gran's instead of at mine? less than a five minute walk btw. this is so fucking stupid..

i love pretending to be a billion different people.. it''s so fun.. living out my dream of being a shapeshifter rn via sideblogs..

crying,, throwing up,, dying..

when you wash away the red, it leaves behind a pretty pink..

i''d be so pretty if i wasn''t allowed to eat junk food.. i have literally no impulse control and i''m ALWAYS hungry.. ((especially on my period..)) i''m naturally curvy with a big chest,, but my fat makes it look wayy too much.. i wish i was allowed to be pretty,, but the people around me just force me to eat junk food that i can hardly resist and i''m always too sore to workout properly..

aaurgghhh,, why do people insist on asking you if you want food over and over until you give in?? i''m not fucking hungry!! jesus christ!! now i feel sick AND i can''t eat the dinner i planned because it''s too many c4ls!!

i can always tell when my period''s coming,, cuz i constantly think about eating my body weight in junk food and then feel like shit while doing it.. :))

why am i such a fucking dick?? why can''t i just be normal..

i really hope my blood doesn''t stain my hoodie.. it''s my favourite..

my mum just got home and i''m still bleeding.. help??

i had 2,100 c4l both yesterday and today.. i'm such a fat fuck- i'm gonna kill myself..

i won't stop till i'm covered in beautiful scars..

why did i have to be born with a wide ribcage why why why

i finally gain enough energy to go to my gran''s to shower,, but it doesn''t even work cuz the water pressure is ass.. fml

my friends have yet again began arguing about petty drama that does not matter at all and, as usual, it is up to me to solve it for them, despite it having nothing to do with me in the first place. these people have the emotional maturity of embryos.