Thoughts in Paper

In this world, money speaks louder than words. When you start making money, you're not just earning cash, you're earning respect, power, and opportunity.

She loaned a money so she can have a capital for a networking business. The money loaned was not returned until today. And the person already wants the money back. Or else we will not get the house title back.

That made me so angry I cried.

I already told her before that she doesn’t need to work or look for money. I can handle everything that she doesn’t need to worry about the food, bills to pay, etc.

Even her personal needs I got it covered.

She didn’t had the guts to tell me thats why she told about it to my sister instead.

After knowing about it, I was so mad that I didnt talk to her. Until now.

Its her birthday a week from now and I still want to show her Im mad to what she did.

I felt that she do not appreciate the things I did to give them a comfortable life.

Im a single mom, and yet I was able to provide for their needs without help from anyone.

After my last relationship, I vowed to myself to never again open myself to anyone else. It was hard at first, the first few months will hit you with flashbacks and memories. Good ones. Its painful to remember them knowing the person is no longer with you.

I read 29 books 6 years ago. Today, I just finished the 26th book I read for this year.

Its called, Before the Coffee Gets Cold.

Just one more day and its December once again. Time flies!

This week has been a little bit tough. But Im very grateful that I made it through.

By alone, I mean only depending on yourself for your happiness and your comfort. I mean dreaming of a future where your goals rely on you, and only you, to achieve them.

By alone, I mean strolling down a beach with the sand between your feet and hugging yourself as the wind brushes your bare arms. I mean taking yourself on a date to your favourite café with a book, a coffee, and yourself for company and watching the sun rise and fall back down again, feeling nothing but comfort in that moment.

By alone, I mean listening to your own thoughts, being your best friend, and cherishing the solitude that you find yourself in. I mean being okay with not having a partner and still feeling loved. I mean being comfortable in the presence of those that do. I mean being happy when those you grew up with fold themselves in the arms of relationships, jobs, children, and new countries while you are still on a journey to find whom you truly are.

Be brave enough to love yourself.

By love, I mean wrapping strength around your wrists as you bunch your hands into tight fists for anyone who dares to treat you badly and letting your heart rest inside your chest rather than carrying it on your sleeve for people who will never see it for what it is worth.

I mean loving yourself enough to walk away, enough to say when you have endured too much, enough to smile at your reflection in the mirror when life feels grim, enough to put yourself first and not let anyone take you for granted.

By love, I mean hugging yourself when you feel empty, pouring all the tenderness that you give to others inside yourself, where it belongs. I mean giving and giving to your heart until you fill your empty bucket with enough love to last you a lifetime. I mean cherishing your soul, comforting yourself, and never letting yourself go astray again.

Be brave enough to become the right person for yourself.