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People are always coming and going in my life.

Sometimes the reasons are right in front of me.

Other times, it’s not so clear.

It is a heartbreaking feeling to experience.

I shouldn’t be feeling this.

As I always give my life to the people who come into my life and I usually get let down, over and over again.

It’s a cruel world isn’t it?

It is fucking miserable! Heartbreaking experience to be part of and to witness with your own eyes.

Why did you constantly break my heart and make me endure horrible things I didn’t ask for?

You took a life, the one person who stuck by me and believed in me. I shouldn’t be the one growing older while they’re were a parent. A mother. My mother. She still had so much to live for and to experience freely and happily. I shouldn’t be the one to reach 80 first! You turned that into an endless grief that haunts me forevermore.

If you truly exist, you should be answering these prayers people offer you and doing something about it. Your so-called flock – your priests and nuns – have caused immense suffering and harm to thousands of innocent lives, including mine.

You are the most ungrateful “God” to have been created. Be truthful, “God”. Remember, lying to yourself in this sense is a sin after all. But we all know “God” you won’t show up.