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“There is potential everywhere darling

“I want to cut you out of my life but I can’t seem to find the scissors.”

You can’t. you can not Just Act like you didn’t screw Up. I will not be here If you keep denying that You Are the one who screwed up. You Hurt me so fucking bad. I have been through Some shit. I have had my heart Broken, But never like that. You can’t just pretend Like you are the Victim. You’re not.

"Hold my hand;

He’s not even mine, and I am not his, but I wanted to be.

I always do this. I get attached to the wrong people, way too fast, way too often.

It took me a really long time to get over you. I don’t know why, but it did. And now you’re talking to my friends the way you would talk to me when we first met. Why can’t you just get out of my world? I mean, I’m glad you’re okay, because I had no way of knowing if you were even alive. But I still don’t want you in my life. I know you’re toxic. Despite what you may believe, or may want to believe, I was in love with you. Totally, hopelessly, blindly, recklessly. And I know you didn’t feel the same, and I know you don’t get it. But I cannot, and I will not, reopen that wound. You hurt me, and I walked away, finally. I don’t need you. I’m doing so much better. You need to get out of my world. Goodbye.

"Forcing myself to

"Fuck everyone who left without saying goodbye//

"Maybe I can't tell you the truth because I don't know what it is."

"I will love myself

My mom still misses you, just so you know She thought she saw your Jeep and got all excited I still miss the better parts of you The person I knew in the beginning, when everything was so beautiful But I guess that wasn’t real because that’s not who you are Or were, for that matter Remember that day when we were talking on the phone And you said all you wanted was a normal family A normal life A normal girlfriend who loved and cared about you I could have been her, I could have said something but I knew even then that if we started anything, you wouldn’t finish it We never could have lasted because that was never what you wanted, Not really And I would like to forget you now, and move on But that’s so much harder than it sounds And besides Where would I find the inspiration for my art? Thank you for the catastrophe

"You fucked me up

"If