It’s not fair, that someone always loves more, that someone always tries a little harder, that someone always ends up hurting even when they gave everything they could.

I miss writing

im busy missing you while you're busy missing someone else

You wanna know the hardest thing she's had to do lately? Learn not to care about you. She's had to learn how to wake up in the morning and not expect to see a "Good morning" text from you. She's had to learn how to go throughout the day without talking to you at all. She's had to learn how to not get upset when you stop replying to her when you two get a chance to talk. She's had to learn how to not be up to date with your life after removing you off of her social media. She's had to learn how to not get tempted to ask you questions when she hears that you've been hanging out with another girl. She's had to learn how to not get jealous when she sees you with another girl. She's had to learn how to depend on herself after depending on you for so long. She's had to learn how to not miss you after not being around you for a certain amount of time. She's had to learn how to leave you alone instead of thinking it's okay to take up all of your time. She's had to learn how to not think about you when she isn't right next to you. She's had to learn how to get over you and not be hopeful that you'll want to get back with her. She's had to learn how to move on with her life instead of wishing for things to go back to the way they used to be. She's had to learn how to live without you and well, that isn't easy. Especially when she's still in love with you. But little by little, she's learning to love you a little less every day because as happy as loving you makes her, it also hurts too much.

1:02am // it's late at night and i forgot how to breathe.

​I chose to be there for you, but you refuse me to

I dont believe in telling lies I don’t like to lie and I certainly wont lie to you so that you become happy I am blunt and hard on people I’ll twist and bend you to make you see what I see be it something beautiful or something ugly I will let you know if I like you, love you, or even hate you I’m not someone who’s scared to speak her mind and people seem to find that odd as not everyone is so blunt like that

My thoughts are scattered I can’t think straight; I can’t write about love without saying your name I’ve written letters for you pages are scattered every where, Strangers find it beautiful, I thank God that there’s people who can find beauty in my dark soul. You didn’t think my demons were beautiful; I’m sorry if I scared you I’m sorry that I couldn’t be happy all the time, I tried I laughed when I wanted to cry- But now I’m free to drown in these tears, Since you’re not here to see me be this weak If I had to hate you for anything, it’d be because you made breathing feel like drowning

It felt like a part of me had died that day that part was you I don’t like to think of you as my past but as my future because we will definitely meet again someday

Do stars also feel sorry for us sometimes bc we keep wishing for people to love us back when we can't even do it to ourselves

Treat me like the moon. Marvel at me for years, but do not bother deciphering my craters.

​Staring up at the stars Is all I want to do Now you left me all alone Wondering if you're Staring down at me, too

If one day for some reason you’ll find that you’re not in love with me anymore, it’s okay. It’s okay for you to tell me because a person as good as you shouldn’t be stuck with someone they used to love. It will hurt like hell, even the very idea of it does, but I’ll understand. It will be hard but I’ll let you go if you want me to. I’ll let you go but I will look back a thousand times and try to reach my hand to yours for a final touch. After a large amount ice cream and sad songs I’ll learn to not need you anymore. Eventually I’ll be thankful and not bitter, thankful for the time I was special to you.