This is me

“I can’t think of a better way to revenge someone who tried to break you, than to live and love life more without them.”

Don’t let them lie to you. Don’t let them tell you differently than what you know or act differently. If you can’t control their gaslighting, control your inner thoughts. Correct them in your mind, but DO NOT believe their lies. Do NOT let them confuse your reality. Do NOT let them normalize their wrong doings.

I saw a comment somewhere about how narcissists prey on certain personality types and it’s so true. They don’t like anybody strong or willful who speaks their mind. Usually they go for the  doormats who are extremely passive and don’t have their own opinions. 

You can’t make homes out of human beings, someone should have already told you that.

But sometimes your light attracts moths and your warmth attracts parasites. Protect your space and energy.

It took me some time to realize that I was the one hanging on tightly. I was trying, sacrificing myself to make things work. But you just sat, unaware of how hard I was trying. And you'll never know how hard I tried to hang on. You'll never know how much I wished I didn't have to let you go.

But how could you love another soul the right way, if you’ve spent your whole life loving yourself in all the wrong ways?

When ever I’m down, when ever I need you, when ever I need a shoulder to cry on, you aren’t there, most of the time you arent around. So whats the point of being in a relationship, whats the point of working hard on it, whats the point of being in love...I need someone who makes me feel safe, who makes every struggle worth it. I dont want be in a relationship just for the sake of being in one. And I know for a fack that you need that, you need that strong rock who makes you even stonger, and I cant be that person if you aren’t him for me. I would prefer being alone than being lonely. Its either you are busy or asleep, and I never feel like Im a priority, I feel like I heard you say “Im trying” so many times to the point I lost belive in it, I lost hope in it. love is not everything, and I want to be wanted. I hate that I miss you, I hate that I spend more time missing you than the time I spend showing you how much I love you.....