This is Internalized Hate

Hi! This is a blog dedicated to internalized hate, inspired by @this-is-saneism @this-is-parental-abuse and @this-is-ableism !

just send in an ask related to your own internalized hate! I will not allow people to go around saying “[blank] is doing [blank] therefore they hate themself!”

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Random things I think people might ask!

“What counts as internalized hate?”

when you hate yourself because people keep saying things/doing things because they hate you. For example, I hate my guts! Internalized ableism, internalized homophobia, internalized racism, internalized pluralphobia… they all count!

“I’m a minor. Can I really have internalized hate if my hormones are acting up?”

of course! I’m a minor as well, and I’m chock full of it! All hate is real, all your emotions and feelings are real!

also, I’m open to asks about internalized love!

And when she asked me to wash up just now, I turned the hot tap on and when there was no hot water, I fucking went to my room and started crying and even thought about killing myself for a moment. Now the water's back on, I'm fucking laying here sending this Tumblr ask instead of going to do it when all I have to do is stand for an hour at a sink. Like yeah, I get dizzy AF but I've never actually passed out. And even if I do, this woman fucking houses me when she doesn't have to and I don't even do a few chores

Sometimes I think her life would be so much better without me in it but then I remember it's selfish of me to die and I think it'd just be better if I didn't exist in the first place. I want to tell her I'm so sorry for being here but that would sound like a guilt trip and I'd be a horrible person for that

this is internalized hate.

anon, you deserve to exist, I can promise you that. I’m terrible at giving advice, so I’ll just say that this sounds like something you should go to a professional about

(sorry if anything in this ask breaks the blog rules)

this is very much internalized hate

This is internalized ablism and internalized hate.

this is internalized aphobia

almost breaking down over my homework because I Should Be Better at this. i can complete only a single worksheet in a (weekend) day and it feels like walking through tar. i have such a backlog of homework and it only serves to make me feel pathetic and worthless.

i cant wait to graduate because i function so much better outside of school

this is internalized hate.