j'ecris

I’d like to say that I need a day off but I’ve been on that for 4 days. This is the first day back at work but I’m not in the mood.

The first day of the year was just so bad for me. It was entirely my fault because I was in a bad mood. I don’t know what’s wrong. I’ve written this in another medium yesterday but I think I’m going into a depressive state… again.…

I won’t be continuing the challenge anymore (as some time has passed already).

I’m here because I felt like writing. I’ve been having semi-attacks lately. I had one last week and another today, a mere half an hour ago. First was triggered because I felt like I did something wrong. A co-workers asked me a question…

Day 15: What would be my ideal life?

I’m starting to slowly neglect this challenge. It’s November for goodness sake and I’m only halfway through. I missed 3 days from the past week too!

My ideal life:

Live somewhere far from here (as made obvious by my other posts)

Enjoy the work I’m in

Earn enough money to live a good life

Maintain the friendships I have

Be able to eat healthily (with a day or two a week for cheat days)

Day 14: What do I believe is possible for me to achieve in this life time?

This entry is making me refer to a previous post.

I’m trying to be optimistic here but I think I’ll be able to achieve the first ones I mentioned – immigrating and studying abroad. Money is a bit of a problem right now but I still think it’s achievable.

I’m taking actionon these already. It’s just that I’m doing them simultaneously that it’s messing with my decision-making. I’m actually getting…

Day 13: Do I live life with integrity?

I think I do but it’s not really a black and white thing. Who’s to say, really?

Day 12: What are 10 positive affirmations that I love about myself?

I can do this.

I won’t lose anything if I try.

I will get through the obstacles I will face.

I won’t eat anything unhealthy today.

I am who I want to be.

I am strong.

I know my worth.

I will get through this day.

I am enough.

I will be okay.

    30 Day Journal Challenge

Day 11: What are my dreams in life that I would someday like to accomplish?

My major dreams have got to be immigrating and studying abroad. I’m trying my best to work through this dream as I am already in the process of searching for opportunities. I’ve got my *fingers crossed* all the way.

Make a career change, perhaps? I know, the money’s in the IT industry and I don’t really hate it. I wanted to be in this field but lately, I’ve been wanting to get into some digital…

Day 10: Who are 5 people in your life that make you most happy?

Being a major fangirl, I’m going to include casts of some show. There’s going to be more than 5 people here.

1. My family.

2. My friends.

These things I don’t really need to expound. It’s there. It’s obvious. Why say more?

3. WINNER

THESE GUYS are the epitome of not giving up. No matter how much bullshit they get; they’re still standing. I absolutely love them for their resilience, creativity,…

Day 9: What are 5 things I could do to take better care of myself daily?

1. Exercise.

I keep on telling myself this but I still haven’t gotten to it after that incident. I am extremely unmotivated.

2. Eat healthily.

I try to do this but I feel like I go through extremes most of the time. I eventually stop midway – just like I am with everything else.

3. Read at least a chapter of a book.

I tend to binge read and then stop reading all together for a long period of…

Day 8: Who is my greatest role model in life and what great qualities do I have of them?

I have officially missed one weekday! I didn’t forget it but I was too busy studying for the IELTS that I had no time to do it.

Take this day to reflect on one person who you really look up to and what qualities that have. Why do you like those qualities about them? Do you happen to notice that you also have some of those same amazing qualities as well?

Another difficult question for me. I don’t…

Day 7: How do I believe people perceive me?

We’re going to go negative here.

People think I’m shy and rightfully so. I wholeheartedly agree with this perception. I identify myself as an extremely introverted person. It shows, too. I don’t usually interact with people, and it takes time for me to warm up to them. I don’t initiate conversations, either.

Someone who doesn’t care about anything. I’m not sure if there are some people who see…

Day 6: What does life mean to me?

The prompt says to sum up in a couple of sentences.

Life is a state where I’m to discover myself. Life is to appreciate the good things and go through the bad.

30 Day Journal Challenge

Day 5: What are 5 things that I have accomplished in my life thus far?

I’m currently studying for the IELTS, so I’ll get right into this:

1. Nabbing my first job

I didn’t leave that job satisfied but still, I was grateful for the experiences I received and for the people I met there.

2. Learning HTML/CSS

I did mention this beforebut I will say it again… I’m actually proud that I did that on my own. The Internet was only at its inception and not many were getting…

Day 4: What are 5 things I am grateful for that I couldn’t live a day without?

I’m not sure if I mentioned this before but I’ll be skipping weekends for this challenge. On those days, I actually have something to do and I’m not forced to sit in front of a computer.

Moving on, day 4!

1. Knowing that there are people out there who care

This sounds so cryptic. For me. But yes, sometimes… that’s kind of what gets me through the day. I’m very appreciative of my family and my…

Day 3: What is my favorite thing to do when I am alone?

Oh, hey! It’s Day 3! I almost forgot I was doing this.

Today’s prompt wants me to talk about something I like to do when I’m alone. And well, it’s pretty boring since I just tend to binge TV series and read books – I have a lot of those lined up.

This is going to be a fairly short entry since I couldn’t really write much on these activities. They’re the same (and probably, only) things I do on a…

Day 2: What are 5 things I absolutely love about myself without a doubt?

This is a difficult prompt for me. I’m not anything special, so there’s nothing really I could love myself about? I’ve literally got nothing popping up in my mind right now. Zilch! NADA!

This was also mentioned in the prompt description:

If you cannot think of 5 things, then write down 5 things you wished you loved about yourself and work on accomplishing it!

I still can’t think of any. HELP. I…

Day 1: If I could go back in time, what would I tell my younger self?

Okay, here’s the thing: I don’t remember much of my childhood. I legit have bad memory. Anything I remember is all from my family or my friends. I might have bits and pieces that I can recollect but other than that… nothing.

I’m writing this with the littlest of memories that I can remember.

1. Take the SATs.

I have this at the top because I’ve always regretted not doing it.

Ever since I was in…