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πππ.Β Against kings, knights, and cowards, Daemon had always known which face to wear; against Rhaenyra, every mask felt suddenly poor. He remained precisely as he was, his hands still laid upon the oak, though the fingers had curled inward now, slow and involuntary, the knuckles mirroring hers in their blanched and bloodless rigour. Beneath his grip, the stem of his goblet gave a faint complaint. A little groan of metal. Pitiful. Mayhaps that was all men were beneath sufficient pressure: soft matter pretending at strength, bending in the fist of what they loved. Once, he would have reached as if reaching were his right. Fingers to chin, thumb to cheek, hand around the nape, drawing her wrath close enough to turn it into heat. Their lives had been full of such thefts; glances stolen across feasts, hours stolen from duty, kisses stolen from the mouths of propriety and kinship and shame. ( Gods curse her. Gods keep her. Gods help him, but she had learned too well how to put a hand through the joints of his armor. ) A son for a son. Such a small, tidy phrase. Such a kingly little fiction. Men loved their ledgers, their balances, their old laws of blood and recompense. His mouth twisted. The fork still lay where she had cast it, a small and glinting accusation amid the ruins of their supper, the cold capon and softened carrots and broken bread bearing mute and pathetic witness to the domesticity that had reigned here only moments before, in that brief and vanished age when they had been merely husband and wife at table rather than queen and consort locked in a war of wills that threatened to unravel the fragile tapestry of their cause. A wiser man might have bowed his head and named his guilt cleanly, before pride could draw breath and turn the truth into a quarrel. Daemon Targaryen had been neither lesser nor wise in any hour that had mattered. Pride lived in him old as Valyria, hard as dragonbone, bright as a blade held too long in fire.
β I did not plot in the dark, β His voice came low, almost quiet, β I plotted in the open, before the men who serve us, and I would do so again before the eyes of every lord and smallfolk from here to the Wall. I make no apology for the manner of it. β A pause. His throat worked, and the sweat at his nape, a jagged, traitorous prickle, had gone cold, as though his body had already begun to cool in anticipation of the frost she was casting over him. β Only for the... miscalculation. β
Silence took the chamber by the throat. His eyes flicked to her brow, bare though it was. In his mind, gold still rested there, pressing into the silver of her hair, naming her before gods and ghosts and men too cowardly to kneel until victory made kneeling safe.Β
β They stole your fatherβs crown before his body had gone cold. They locked your servants away, silenced your allies, crowned that drunken green whelp before the realm, and sent ravens in your name as though you were already ash on Dragonstone. Aemond murdered your son and came home to be embraced by traitors. The realm looked upon the rightful heir and waited to see whether she would weep or strike. β His jaw tightened. β Do you think your enemies would be moved by mercy? That Otto Hightower lies awake trembling at the purity of your restraint? That Aegon will descend the Iron Throne because you have shown him the tender parts of your heart? βΒ
No song had ever been made for the mercy of wolves.
His breath snagged. A small, involuntary, almost inaudible hitch in his throat, barely perceptible, swiftly and brutally smothered, but he knew well she had heard it, for her ears were as keen as her teeth, and she missed naught that fell from him. When he looked upon her once more, the fire had banked, the furnace door closed and latched and sealed, and what remained was stripped of every artifice and every defense. Violet met violet, flame met flame, and somewhere between them the chamber seemed to warp with heat. Rhaenyraβs anger had a sovereignty all its own. His wrath for her will; his hunger for her justice. His certainty for her command. How often had he scorned men for that very sin? The thought sickened him more than the childβs blood had at first. Perhaps that, too, was its own damnation. He was not a good man; he had never labored under that delusion. But he had thought himself faithful.Β
Faithfulness had been his last vanity, the bright coin he kept hidden even from himself.Β
β I did not think of Helaena as I ought, β The admission came hard, scraped raw by pride. For all the blood he had spilled, all the names blackened by his hand or his command, Daemon had ever preferred his sins plain. He could wear murder when it suited him. He could clasp cruelty at his throat like a princeβs chain. But this acknowledgment of carelessness sat ill upon him His jaw flexed once, twice. β There. Have that from me, if you would have blood with your truth. I did not think of her. I thought of Luke. I thought of you. The true queen. β