Thin-Bliss

*eats little to reduce fat reserves*

*loses muscle instead*

I don’t want to binge back the weight I lost tho.

And then today at the store i over heard some girls talking about how pretty I am, and then when I left the store some guy chased me out for my number!

Wtf this has never happened to me I feel like a

I hate this. It’s not fair. They really want to erase us from existence. I get it but i also dont? Why do I have to jump through fire hoops to find my community, people that understand me.

Why?

Did the comments “you look skinnier already” trick me into thinking I was? Was my reflection in the mirror not fucking there to remind me that I’m not skinny at all? That I’m still fucking fat?

Ok lets pretend I am “skinny”.

Wear that skirt again. Go on… WEAR IT!! Oh I can’t? It doesn’t fit?

~Did you go from eating a lot to eating little to nothing overnight?

~Did you slowly start changing your diet?

For me, I went from eating very little, to when I moved out to live on my own. I ate only Wendy's since it was on my commute to work and home. I was lazy (depressed) to cook at home and since I got tips at work, I stopped at Wendy's and got a combo. Every. Single. Day.

About a year later I got... well, fat.

I didn't know how to lose it since I've always hated exercise, didn't want to cook and everything in my country was fatty.

I moved to the Netherlands and there.. the food is different. It doesn't taste as good. Almost, bland. I figured I might as well cook at home and since I'm lazy (depressed) I cooked very little, so I lost weight eventually and looked so good I couldn't believe it.

Then I moved back to my home country and my mom went ballistic that I was too skinny, looking like a corpse and all that jazz... so i ate... and ate, and ate and ate some more. I gotta give it to em the food here is good. But guess who is the new Free Willy? ME!

So to answer my own question, It was overnight.

I stopped eating out all together and now im cooking at home! And I have you guys motivating me and keeping me from eating out and falling to temptation so

Outside where the air is blowing in my direction, it brings the smell of one of my favourite foods… Mexican food.

The smell of steak and taco’s in the air will make the next 3 hours very difficult.

I DELETED TWITTER OMG!!

I’m so proud of myself 🥹

List of reasons why it will stay deleted:

- Too much weight gain “positivity”

- EVERYTHING is a problem or a reason for discourse and argument and im just so tired of it

- All the funny memes will eventually end up elsewhere so I don’t need it

- It’s elon’s twitter now and I want no part of it

- they force feed you depressing world problems. I’m a poor bitch in a random island in the middle of nowhere. I’m no activist I can’t do shit so why depress myself over it. I’m depressed enough as is.

- All the social problems in the USA have nothing to do with me.