Thinking Thin

Ended today on 1400. I think that’s what I’ve got to stick to for a while because I’m going insane restricting so much earlier in the day. I can’t do my job, the brain fog is so bad. It’s not like a can stay home all day, or I’m doing something that I can redo. If I don’t do my job I don’t get paid. Simple as.

I’m doing so fucking well. All I need to do is finish today. I’m so tired and hungry. From tomorrow I can eat 1400-1500 every day! I can eat more carbs! I can have a decent breakfast! Eat fruit! I had the best Fuji apple earlier. I was so starving, it tasted so sweet and juicy. I could fast better at the weekend except that’s when I do fun stuff which usually includes pancakes and falafel wraps and noodles and beer and I refuse to give that up. All I wanna be doing right now is yoga, easy gooey stretchy yoga. Watch a film while drinking tea. Something to distract myself. Instead I have work tasks and a foggy brain and I’m trying so hard so hold off on the coffee I desperately want. I biked 65 mins this morning and I could feel how depleted my body was. I could barely raise my heart rate. Ok. I’ve lasted an hour since lunch. I can have coffee now. Coffee and music and buckle down and the time will pass.