Still Here

Because, recall when Sam was purifying him of the demon thing, he said "Even after I gave him all that blood, he still said he didn't want to be cured, and that he didn't want to be human".

And Cas replied with "Well, I see his point. You know, only humans can feel real joy, but also such profound pain. This is easier."

tl;dr: I'm writing a script for my youtube video essay on a childhood video game I'm doing a challenge in, and I go into lore, story telling, summarize, mechanic breakdowns and stuff, so to ME at least it feels very involved and worthy of going towards my NaNoWriMo word count.

I would still like to hear opinions just in case and also out of curiosity.

Makes sure Dean is all settled with Lisa and goes hunting on his own. He didn't even have to hunt. He could've done literally whatever because everyone thinks he's dead. I know that he can't feel anything which includes anger of course, but just on the principle and how we saw other Soulless people act later - he could've and SHOULD'VE been so much worse. After the amount of times he was bait and victim of sexual abuse, I'd take a back seat and giggle at Meg kissing Dean too because wow, HE sure always laughed these things off.

I think Dean has the best hateful-disgusted-side-eye-glare expressions in the whole show, no one can do it like him. I ***aspire*** to convey so much disdain with barely any facial movement.

Nick after Lucifer's death.

Galaxy Skin // vent art

The Archangels playing Mario Party.

got lazy with a redraw so this is all you get.

He was just treating Dean the way he's been treated his whole life by his older brother. MINUS the physical and verbal abuse. Dean always talked shit about how unstable Sam is and called him a freak again and again, well. Eat up your slice of humble pie this is how bad Sam can REALLY get.

And to put things in perspective? When other people turned Soulless they killed people in cold blood and turned into straight up criminals. Soulless Sam killed innocent people but never unprompted and without a reason.

Also about the Meg stuff - when you don't have a soul so you can't be traumatized yeah. It's funny to see the demon who sexually abused you straddle your brother making jokes. Like "Wow sexually assaulting me wasn't enough she's going for Dean as well, props for the dedication to the bit".

Sam had his body, mind, and soul violated time and time again by pretty much everyone including Dean so I'm pretty sure that guy doesn't get to complain. Not after the blaming a struggling alcoholic and blood junkie that was violated by a Knight of Hell as an infant and then went on to be abused, manipulated, and controlled by everyone in his life. Tricking Sam into saying Yes to Gadreel after the traumatizing events he went through with Castiel and Lucifer, the sabotaging text about Amelia, blaming Sam for respecting his promise to Dean instead of violating their agreement just because he's so used to never giving a shit about what Sam asked for him - those things are way fucking worse than anything Soulless Sam ever did to him.