thewittyprincess

it’s taken her a long time to get here.

thank you.

we listen to people,

we give them advice,

we lose sleep listening to them vent

we lose sleep talking to them, telling them things will be okay,

we assure them we are here, 24/7

we give them everything.

but what do we receive back from these people?

ignored messages,

left on seen when we are feeling down,

mean jokes when they’re not what we need

attitudes.

humans aren’t supposed to be this way. they’re supposed to tend to others, or atleast attempt.

She daydreams a lot. She uses it as an escape from her mind and the constant thinking. It’s the only thing convincing her that her future may not be hopeless.

a loss. a big loss. she sacrificed her feelings for you, to only be dumped and forgotten. you want to forget every loving word you’ve said. all of the romantic comments, which just degrades how she is more.

it was impossible, but she just wanted a friend that would treat her like she treated them.

she has a lot of issues. but she never brings them up, for they stay in the depths of her mind, only touched by her, for she feels none of her friends truly care.

people claim her as the positive, loving upbeat friend. but in the depths of her, so deep, she hates herself. she hates almost everything about her.

sometimes she makes an 11:11 wish. sometimes it happens. sometimes it just makes everything worse.

the out feeling. the pit feeling. she isn’t feeling anything physically, but her mind is thinking. its thinking without her realizing or knowing. she’s somehow just sinking down and down, further into her hole of self hate.