Oct 16, 2022
There's this feeling inside me that one day my desire and need for love would rich such a peak that all of a sudden i would go numb and completely emotionally unavailable. I have sought love for so long, waited to be loved so much that maybe a day will come and i will absolutely hate the idea of love and stop believingin it. That's a cruel thing to happen but at the same time, it would save my heart immensely. When you've been warm and love starved for too long, and it never happened to you for real, you end up being cold. Yes i want to be cold and not feel like a shit every minute. I want to be so cold that people can't believe that my past over emotional version ever existed.
