The Chaos Artist

“Love those who love you when you have nothing to offer but your company.”

“I think it’s beautiful the way you sparkle when you talk about the things you love.”

وقبلتهـا تسعـا وتسعيـن قبـلـة ً براقـة ًبالكـف ِوالـخـدِ والـفـم ِ ووسدتهـا زنـدي وقبلـت ثغرهـا وكانت حلالا لي ولو كنـت محـرم ِ

Some days I am so tired of the pain and only the thought of you sustains me, you, joy of my life, sunshine in my veins. Sometimes the tears come but you are there always to hold me. You are everthing that is right with the world, the tenderness that shines to chase the darkness from my eyes. Stay with me here, nestled in my heart. Never let go of my hand.

When life gets messy you know you can always find peace in the magic that lives in my arms. Run to me. Lay your head down. I will hold you gently and let you cry. I will give you silence when needed and sweet words of comfort for your heart, to soothe the wound within it. Come no matter what, no matter when, I will be here with arms extended, always.

“Trauma permanently changes us. This is the frightening truth about betrayal. You never really get over it. At best, you grieve and make some kind of peace with it. But a major life disruption leaves a new normal behind. There’s no going back to who you were before.”

“I have in your eyes’ embrace a love that is not written in ink wells nor described by yearning pens And I have between your ribs, a nation, a moon, and a night longing for its night owl friends I have in your hands a paradise and rituals of longing prepared for those whose loves know no ends لي في ذمة عينيك عشقا لا تكتبه المحابر ولا تصفه أقلام الحنين ولي بين أضلعك وطنا وقمرا وليلا يشتاق الساهرين ولي بين يديك جنة وطقوس من شوق أعدت للعاشقين”

“Sometimes, I have a certain need (that I wish to ask) Allâh, so I ask Him earnestly. Then, I find that the door of dialogue opens up for me, and I recognize Allâh more (I become more aware of Him), and feel humbled before Him, and feel a great sense of joy and happiness, due to which I prefer that the answer to my prayer be delayed, so that this joyous state may continue.”

The Line Is Broken

“وقد سئل عمر عن قوم يشتهون المعصية ولا يعملون بها، فقال: “أُولَئِكَ الَّذِينَ امْتَحَنَ اللَّهُ قُلُوبَهُمْ لِلتَّقْوَى لَهُمْ مَغْفِرَةٌ وَأَجْرٌ عَظِيمٌ” ـUmar [ibn al-Khattab] was asked about those who strongly desire to commit a sin but refrain from it. Umar said: “Those are the ones whose hearts Allah has tested for al-taqwaa (consciousness of Allah), for them is forgiveness and a tremendous reward.” [Quran 49:13]”