The Unburnt Pages

A place to breathe when the air feels heavy

Finding my voice after years of silence

My digital diary

And i would rather.....

I watch gilmore girls on average 40 times a year but now whenever i try to watch anything different at night time my fur baby growls and growls at it until i put gilmore girls on

Only when gilmore girls is on will the doggo settle to sleep

I’ll do one tiny, simple task, edit three photos and my brain thinks I got away with it

​Then 30 minutes later, the emergency brake gets pulled

The sudden sweating, the dizziness, the weakness where your legs just turn to water out of nowhere

Currently bedbound with an ice pack, waiting for my nervous system to stop screaming at me

The pain

The exhuastion

The grief

That comes with chronic illness

I can't do a single hobby anymore, i end up ill, i cant even type on my phone for more than 5 minutes at a time

If i smile with my eyes

They believe me

So i smile with my eyes

They buy it and move on

I break down alone in the dark