thetimeisnowsomehow

And if I do manage to gets meds in at some point, they sometimes process too fast and then I'm hit with the full force of the symptoms, usually somewhere could only be without them. Like any where other than my room.

Get comfortable making spaces to let out parts of yourself or they all blend together. And make a mess.

Because that is a man Who explains complex shit in very simple easy to take the wrong ways Ways

It really grinds my gears to picture this but its realistic: friend I knew from back In The day always wanted kids. He wanted kids more than he cared who they came from, as long as they came from his dick. This last year, his wife has been very pregnant, and probably have had the infant now, but idk bc they have gone dark with communications. Which is telling of itself.

She didn't want kids. He forced the issue. He is 1 of 3 boys. He wants only 3 boys. I hate that. It's so creepy. But creepier still into know that as she lay screaming and crying and dying from the first one, he is there supporting her, speaking listening being there....and THE WHOLE TIME he is actually plotting like a fucking villain how to do this torture shit to his beloved wife two more times!!!! Like its some kind of sick selfless love.

Like imagine being injured for over ayear and then your closest person keeps causing that same injury!?!? wouldn't that be abuse?? It feels like soft kisses before brutal rape. One doesn't negate the other.

He is also, to me, mentally a child. He has no concept of how to take on the adult role himself. This nasty controlling of his wife bit, yeah he loves that because he is short and skinny and submissive to other men. He plays the nice guy to women because he is not intimidating physically. But when he is incontrol of a situation, he wants to grab power in any way he can. He is super ocd about cleanliness. He will rudly clean during conversations. It was a hyper control thing. I pity his wife.

But my own gen, well i just know some boys my age who have recently become fathers and they are good with tech. Super gross that they forced these lives for themselves because it was done in a really fake forced way, but hey that is what happens when you do not listen to yourself and follow the leader because you don't know where to go. Or not go.

extra gross detail: these boy timed the births of their children to be as close as possible. Which also means they are coordinating fucking their unsuspecting wives for a lifestyle outcome. And they are related. Ugh