thetimeisnowsomehow

I used to dream of this little amount of pain. It used to be so much worse. I'm not allowed to forget how much work I have done, even today , to heal.

Recovery smoke rn

But another part of me, wants to immortalize the wants WITH tattoos. I would be covered in seals and symbols. And then manga. So much manga. Before They fade. I wish I could throw the cash down while the passion is there! Turn it into permanence like how I did with other tattoos. I timestamped them. Me. Us. Times of loss and times of rage and mostly times of determination. And a little bit of silly. I want more.

She wanted me stupid and suffering for her amusement. No advice was better than fucked up confusing advice. She loved to set me up to fail. She liked to upset children. And she was so very mad when I wasn't just an adult one day. I was never allowed to learn, to fail, it was perfection or punishment. So I learned to hide. Be scarce.

She had a version of me in her head that wasn't me: she thought I was a trouble maker. I was actually just going on walks and reading books and comics and listening to music. I even tried to be that fake girl she wanted: I drank, I went to parties, I went to events. But they werent my thing. And the exhaustion of living at the wrong pace made my disabilities so bad I could not do that even if i wanted to now. I never got what other people got out of social: I got drained and annoyed. I did not see the sexual circus, because if i had known wouldn't have gone.

My nervous system knew she was a huge threat, and it only got worse over time. I became sick around her. She knew she fucked up at a certain point, and then just started doing damage. Hard damage.

Bro was skewered 14 times. Each one of those black chakra rods came from Madara's hands. And he might have missed a few shots in their speed battle. So Madara likely made a ton of rods to throw at undead Tobirama before he starting pinning him to the ground. He definitely had to get one lodged in his body to stop the hiraishin loops.

Just funny how he really went the extra mile for Tobirama. He was done reasoning with Hashirama, took his chakra and moved on. But Tobirama? He got the full fucking lecture. And stabbed in the head one extra time.

Me want .....tattoo

Me want money. Me want do a million things. So many things. Think about the things. Andthenit too many things and me jus wan tattoos

Anime tattoo. Of my favorite. Or fix my old ones. Both. But especially new days. Me wan favsss

I don't know why I am typing with the Jamaican accent I am pale as shit it's just fun.