Julia Fernandez

Bloom

For those whom it does not come naturally to

"I can cast it! Just give me a minute!"

"Why can't I do this? Why can't I do this?!"

"It shouldn't be this hard! Everyone else seems to find it easy enough..."

"All I wanted was to be a wizard, and now..?"

"Maybe I'm not cut out for magic."

"Everyone's blasting off spells left and right and I can barely cast fireball."

"Every movement is perfect, why isn't it working!"

"The Gods hate me."

"All that study, all that time... for nothing."

"Ow! Goddamnit! I burnt my fingertips again."

"Don't backfire please don't backfire please..."

"I've got this, I can do this, it's not going to hurt this time -"

"Am I getting the evocation wrong? Am I saying it badly?"

"I just don't know why it doesn't work."

"Every single time I do this it blows up in my face."

"Indocrinus - wait no that's not right -"

"I can feel the power coursing through me, then it just... fizzles out."

"The magic feels... wrong. To me."

"There are easier ways I could do this, but I want to do it right."

"I feel the pull of the dark magics. The ones that are... easy."

"Why is it so bad to use the shadows? They want me to use them."

"Magic won't obey me. I cannot force it to. Yet there is another..."

"Dark magic this, evil magic that. Its all magic, isn't it?"

"After all, why shouldn't I?"

"You can tell me it's bad all day but it's magic I can do!"

"I know I can control it, I know I can..."

"Just... help me. Please? I want to be good at this."

“Open your mouth. Wider.” 

“Face down, ass up. This is how I want you.” 

“Get down bitch, lick my come up off the ground.” 

“You can barely take three fingers…why don’t we try four?” 

“See? You can’t move at all, you’re completely under my control.” 

“I love it when the binds leave bruises on your skin.” 

“On your knees, slut. Stay where I put you.” 

“What a perfect sight, you, all spread out for me to do whatever I want to…” 

“Does it bother you that you can’t see me? Good. You’ll never know what’s coming.” 

“Mh, every time I hit you, you tighten down on me…” 

“Count them out, if you mess up once, I’m starting over.”

“Oh, you look so frustrated…I’m not stopping, though. You’ll come when I say you can.” 

“Look at me, slut. I want to see your face when I fuck you into the bed.” 

“Fuck, you look so beautiful when you cry.” 

“Go on, you said you could get away from me. You lose, pet.” 

“You like when I choke you?” 

“Look at all these marks on you…does it feel good?” 

“Uh-uh, swallow. All of it.” 

“You’re going to take all of me, I don’t care if it’s too much.” 

“I’m going to fuck you until you can’t fuckin’ walk.”