Third Eye Open

It ain't all bad if you get it from your regular. Got 3 different strains of dope in here. Interesting so far.

This is the final day of a week long bender. I have been so whacked that all I need is a couple puffs every hour to completely reanimate me. Got a fat one packed for work, got my hot rail rez washed snd evaporating, and got all the tools I nee to enjoy a weeks worth of rez from my pook after work. My bell has been rung. I don't even know which dimension I'm in presently,but if you see me, point me to the me that is watching you watch me; he seems the most coherent.

is introducing my gf to meth. I hate seeing her upset as is and her comedowns are so terrible. Fml.

Fuck man. Been smoking good for two days now and basically it's in all the fluids in my body. I haven't smoked in 8 hours and I still feel like I'm peaking. Trying to slam water to piss it out but it isn't helping. When I'm like this I'm an inconsiderate prick. All I can do is play video games and piss my girlfriend off. I can't really feel or express emotion (which is part of why I enjoy it) and so I just assume everything is all good when it's all bad. Maybe it'll take an overdose for me to think clearly. Here I am at two in the morning wide tf awake sitting in the bathroom hoping I don't piss my gf off more. I can't sleep, I can't play, I can't even think. I'm lost in the numb. I wish more peeps would talk to me.

When you fall OUT

You gotta shit after the first hit.

Violent J

Being fat and ugly is a great cover for tweaking. No one notices your looks downgrading and they congratulate you on your weight loss.

Got so fucking high I think my brain stopped functioning. Hit a moment of numb and it just continued. That's what it's all about though, isn't it? Forgetting ourselves for a day or three. I'm not really depressed, or sad... just bored I guess. There is no real meaning to life besides to live, and drugs seem to help me live happier. I'm all ready poor, grew up poor and will probably die poor, I don't really care much for money. There's nothing I long for, I am quite content. Content gets fucking boring though. I don't have any real hobbies except video games. When I want adventure my girlfriend and I step out into the world and pursue it. I have two quality friends and a loving family. Drugs just seem to make things better. If you want to do drugs don't let anyone stop you. Don't let them call you an addict. Even if you are. It's your choice to make, not theirs. They want you to succeed for their own selfish gains, so they can pat themselves on the back and think they're great for sending you on the "right" path. There is no right or wrong in this world; there is only what is. Just don't make your problems someone else's problems, or accept the consequences if you do. Peace.