This triggers me happyâ¨
Ok, how do I start this? I know who this is going to, even when they donât read it. Letâs do it.
Last night, June 11th, 2017, my life changed, like, forever. I blame you, the four parisian boys with brotherly love; you, Thomas Mars, Laurent Brancowitz, Christian Mazzalai and Deck D'Arcy. I blame you, Phoenix.
Since I met your music I had always dreamed of seeing you live. I spent hours in front of a screen, watching and replaying videos of you guys pouring your heart out on stage, and seeing how people responded to that energy that you send. I literally dreamed about seeing you perform, I used to think that maybe one day I would be able to do it but I never actually saw it happening. Ever. It was too far away from me, almost impossible. But, maybe I wished too hard and worked my way to it, so with a little a help from the stars and life, I made it.
I prepared for it. Religiously. I made sure that everything was ready for that day, I picked up an outfit, even an emergency one (because weather can always fuck us up), I got a special t-shirt made, which I must say, Iâm very proud of. I made sure to have a ride back home and I also made sure that I knew how to get to the place before the day arrived. I made a countdown, day by day, and by doing that I got more and more excited, but to be honest I donât think I realized what was happening until a few days before the concert.
When I finally stepped in front of the stage, knowing that I would be there for about 6 hours before I could see you, it hit me. I was there, at the X-Fest at San Diego, main stage, front row, left side, at around 9:00 pm I would be seeing you guys. It was just hours for you to be right in front of me, playing, singing, performing, pouring your heart out on stage just like in those videos that I watched so many times. Was it a dream? Was I dreaming again? Nah, in my dreams I never waited, my body didnât hurt due to the hours that I stand there. In my dreams you played and then I woke up to realize that it was just in my head.
So hours went by, and other bands played, but I was just waiting for you guys. And then it hit me harder, you were about to come on stage. It was all ready, the giant mirror, the lights, the floor/screen, your instruments, the rest of the people, but, man, I was not ready. All that I thought I knew, it flew out the window. Being shy? Never! I screamed like I was being killed when I saw Branco take his place. Deck came out with a yellow jacket and I believe my eyes couldnât get bigger. Chris took his place with his always nice smile and I freaked out. He was all the way on the other side of the stage but still I felt like dying. Common sense? What is that? I never thought that the guy next to me could get his ear damaged when I sounded like being in a horror movie at the moment I laid eyes on Thomas and his palm trees shirt. You guys, you made my heart explode and you hadnât even played yet.
Then it happened, lights went out, and it started. The catchy intro to Ti Amo started and I fucking lost it. Nothing else mattered in that moment. My eyes were not enought to see everyone there. Every move from each of you was magical. Every word Thomas sang, every chord Branco, Chris and Deck played. I believe there was many other people there, but somehow screaming like I did sometimes works, because Thomas came all the way to the left and sang, you sang like an angel, a fallen angel I must say. Every word had so much feeling that I couldnât stop myself from being a fucking mess. One of those times you came to sing, you smiled. You saw how we all enjoyed your music and you smiled, with more than your mouth. Your whole body language said thank you, and how you felt humbled by all the people there, and how you couldnât believe this was happening even though that wasnât your biggest crowd, and even when this wasnât the first time you were doing this nor the last one. Branco, I saw that in you too, you heard the screams and you just shyly smiled. Deck, you were always so concentrated, and Chris, I couldnât really see much of you because like I told you before, I was all the way on the other side of the stage, but I knew you were enjoying what you did.
The âLove Like a Sunsetâ ending broke my heart into a million pieces, it made me so happy and so sad at the same time. Was I born again? My soul probably did. Because I can assure you that I died with every song you guys played. Even more because I knew that one more song meant it was closer to the end.
Every single song was superb. I felt them all in my bones, my whole being couldnât handle so much happiness. And I want to thank you. For everything. For creating such amazing pieces of art, because you guys are damn fine artists. The four of you together make the perfect match which transforms into every note and into every lyric. You have such balance because you have worked out the way to get the results you want. And guys, the results are amazingly beautiful.
You deserve every bit of recognition because youâve earned it, and you know how? Making us, the fans, happy. And you know how you got to that? By doing what makes you happy. Because thatâs the way itâs supposed to be when you find what you love in life. And you guys love music, and I know you love your fans and everyone who supports what you do.
And, let me tell you, we love you. With every cell on our bodies, we are forever grateful that you guys make such a wonderful work, and you make it look easy. You make it look easy to follow your dreams and make them come true, just like I did with one of mine, which was seeing you live one day.
I did it, and it was because of you what you do. Itâs a full circle. And I hope all of the fans that go and see you perform can enjoy as much as I did.
To each one of you, merci beaucoupâ¨â¨đ
Much love and thanks from this girl.
Thanks for triggering me happy.
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