My Life My Ignorance My Bliss

So much on my mind.... can't find the words to say them.

I made a bad choice..... seemed good at the time but it didn't work out..... many choices I make don't work out. However I need to find the strength to push forward. Sitting back and being depressed about my situation won't help at all. One day... things will be better..... until then I'm gonna try and keep a positive mind set and keep pushing forward.

I just broke my my wife’s heart…… Telling her that I didn’t wanna do this anymore……. I wanna cry….. I really didn’t want wanna hurt her feelings. I wish there was was an easy way to do this but there isn’t. Seemed the more I tried to be easy on her the harder she took it. I let her know that I love her and that will never change. I’ll always be there for her. But our relationship just don’t work. We are both unhappy… I honestly think we would be better separate, than together. Hearing her cry, seeing her pain, and trying somehow comfort her….. Trying to show that I still care, and that love is still here. I wanna cry, but I can’t. Truth be told I’m terrified! I don’t think I’ve ever been this afraid in my life! It took a lot to tell my wife I didn’t wanna do this anymore. Now that I’ve done it! ts like Omg……. What have I done……

I wish that I could beleive and have faith in God as easily as most people. It's not that I don't believe in god..... Or rather that we were created by someone or something. I just find it hard to beleive the perception of what people believe him, and her or it to be. I don't bash anyone's belief or way of life. If you gay? Be gay! I love if your straight? Be straight! If you Bi, and Christian, Muslim, Jewish, and or whatever you can think of that you want to live by then please feel free to be what you wish if it's not harmful to anyone else of course. But please don't bash anyone for believing that in or living a life style. That you don't have, can't understand, and or don't agree with. You do you...... Let me do me.