having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

You have to let people love you. You have to let people get to know you. You have to let people help you. Being so completely selfless that you try to erase yourself off the face of the planet and never ask for anything and reject everybody's offers of support makes you very hard to love! Unfortunately. Emptying yourself out of everything that makes you, you is not actually what your loved ones want from you, generally. They want to make you happy! They will be so so sad if you don't give them the chance. It's not all selfish. I promise.

I’m ready to be transformed by the ibuprofen . I’m ready to be born again in its purifying light.

anyways remember when toni morrison said "sometimes you don't survive whole, you just survive in part. but the grandeur of life is that attempt. it's not about that solution. it is about being as fearless as one can, and behaving as beautifully as one can, under completely impossible circumstances."

sorry for being indecisive, I haven’t had any prophetic dreams to guide me in a while

constantly trying to see the inherent good in people is a humiliation ritual that i continue to willingly participate in

the eyes of someone who just vomited carry a vulnerable acceptance to grief only known in portraits of saints