Missing you come in waves. Tonight I'm drowning.

Give me a reason to live more

If I disappeared, problem solved

seems like.

It sucks that we miss people like that. You think you’ve accepted that someone is out of your life, that you’ve grieved and it’s over, and then bam. One little thing, and you feel like you’ve lost that person all over again.

I don't want to kill myself like I romanticized when I was younger. I now wish that I could simply just stop existing.

In the mood to delete everything and go missing .

I already knew from the beginning that you wouldn’t choose me but that didn’t stop me from loving you genuinely because deep down in my heart I silently hoped that in between those late-night talks, those ‘I love you’ and my constant validation of your emotions, you’d finally see me and feel at home. It was nothing but an almost.

That feeling in your stomach when you realize it’s really over. Your heart just sinks in all the memories, the late-night calls, and all the promises you guys made but you know what’s the worst part? Is that you don’t know if you can do it again.

i got rid of my polaroids of you today and the stuff in my desk drawer. i don’t think i ever expected to be here. living without you and not crying about it.