fuck

I was doing so well, now I’m back to where I was 4 years ago, I don’t think I’ll ever win, I’m a failure

crazy how trauma isn't your fault but it's your responsibility to heal

It's remarkable, the way people will always find a way to disappoint you. Especially the ones you love the most.

it’s so painful to watch yourself grow cold, bitter, and resentful, even toward small, irrelevant things, when all you’ve ever wanted was just to be warm, gentle, kind, and loving.

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

I tried to show you how I was feeling, but you just looked the other way

It hurts so much that I'd rather be dead.