The New Me

I struggle with myself image a lot. I never thought I was pretty or cool enough to be popular. The more I stress about things, the more weight I’ve gained and it only gets worst.. today possibly marks the day where my journal to find the best part of me begins. I having been wasting about 8 years being overweight. Time of youth and beauty is flying by and I need to stop taking these times for granted. This account will be dedicated to my weight loss journal and possibly along with my whining as I try to over come with my old bad habits on how I deal with my stress

Only bff understands. Only bff knows what you mean.

I actually struggle with a lot of things.. But one of them is acting rich. Well I am rich for my age. I worked so hard to get everything i wanted. Those kids my age just ask and they got them. I had to work had for it. I was one of those kids too. Got a father who would give me anything I want but I was unfortunate to lose him when I was 14. I only lived with him for like 10 years my whole life. I took those shit for granted. And then I had to work for my shit. I was a mess when he left. Everyone in the family was a mess when he left this world. I had to kept working to improve my life. I wanted to act like those spoiled kids buying things for myself and acted like someone got them for me. How nice would that be? I am thirsty for those cared moments. It's not that I don't have anyone. I still have my mom and brother. It's just Idk I want to over come this shit and become better. I want to live real but I am fucking a mess and I am too embarrassed and such a coward.. I can't show the world how pitiful I am. All I wanted was to be normal like those average American kids. Well.. At least i have a confident to tell it now.. Life's still long and I am still working better on bettering myself.. Well goodnight world bcuz that's enough of my problem. I don't own all the problem in the world so ima psh now. :)