Sebastian Smythe

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Blaine followed Sebastian silently all the way to the bedroom. Once they got there, Blaine sat next to his boyfriend on the bed. “Seb?” he said, tenderly, putting a hand on Sebastian’s shoulder. “I want you to know that I love you and whatever is going on…we’re going to get through it together.”

Sebastian listened to his boyfriend, staying quiet in an attempt to process Blaine's words. He knew his boyfriend was here for him, but that didn't make things any easier. He fought back tears, staying silent and ducking his head, staring at the floor and biting the inside of his cheek to keep from crying. He couldn't cry - at least, not in front of his boyfriend.

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"It’s okay," Blaine said quietly. He ran a hand through Sebastian’s hair. The gravity of the situation weighed on him, but he didn’t want to start a fight at that moment. He would wait to address it when everything was a bit calmer. "Come on, let’s get you out of floor." Blaine said gently.

Sebastian nods gently, standing up slowly and rubbing a hand over his face, making his way into the bedroom. He sat down on the end of the bed, staring at the floor. He didn't want to look at the expression on Blaine's face, or the worry about the conversation that was to come.

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Blaine flinched back, feeling momentarily hurt when Sebastian snapped at him. He sighed, kissing Sebastian’s neck lightly when the boy apologized. He grabbed a washcloth off of the cabinet and ran it under cool water. He then knelt back down beside Sebastian and handed the cloth to him, hoping not to be snapped at again.

Sebastian kept his eyes locked on the cloth for a few moments before taking it, wiping his mouth and setting it aside, looking down. "I-I didn't mean to snap on you... it just came out. I'm sorry." Sebastian apologizes quietly a second time, hoping Blaine believes him.

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Blaine jumped over to Sebastian, kneeling down next to him. “Seb, what the hell are doing?” he said, in a pained whisper. It killed him to see Sebastian like this. Though part of him had almost known that his boyfriend was doing this, to actually see it was the hardest thing in the world. He felt like a failure as a boyfriend. Shouldn’t he see something like this coming?

"What does it look like?" Sebastian snaps, before biting his lip and whimpering, taking a deep breath. "I.. I'm sorry." He mumbles, refusing to meet Blaine's eyes. He didn't want to see the hurt or disappointment, not right now.

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Blaine’s eyes widened in alarm when he heard Sebastian and then heard the gagging noise continue. Having his suspicions of what was going on, he opened the door. He wasn’t prepared for what he saw. Sebastian shoving his fingers down his throat, making himself throw up. “Stop it, Sebastian!” he said, firmly.

"Leave!" Sebastian chokes, pulling his fingers from this throat as soon as Blaine walks in, gripping the sides of the toilet as he finished throwing up, hitting the stage where he was now only dry-heaving, and his stomach was completely empty. He slumped down against the toilet, resting his head on the cool toilet bowl, closing his eyes.

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Blaine had never liked Puck more than he did in that moment. He was struggling to stay awake in all of his classes that day. Finally, after school, Puck handed him a huge bottle of the Speed and Blaine popped four in his mouth, a lethal dose to someone who wasn’t used to it. Feeling considerably better, he decided to pay Sebastian a surprise visit. When he got to his house, Blaine walked in the front door, having been there enough to know his way. He was walking up to Sebastian’s room when he heard a gagging sound in the bathroom. “Seb?” he asked, knocking lightly on the door.

Sebastian jumped as soon as he heard Blaine, but continued throwing up, fingers shoved down the back of his throat. He coughs, pulling them out and calling for the door. "Don't c-come in here.." He manages to choke out, pushing his fingers back into his mouth as he throws up once again.

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Blaine nodded when Sebastian asked if he trusted him. “Okay,” he mumbled, lying through his teeth. He felt ill, lying to his boyfriend. He snuggled in close to Sebastian to try and make the feeling go away.

Sebastian sighed softly, pressing a kiss to Blaine's cheek, rubbing a hand over his back. "I love you very much." Sebastian assures his boyfriend, yawning quietly. He closed his eyes, dozing to sleep quickly.

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"I feel the exact same. You know you can trust me, right?" Sebastian asks softly, running his fingers through Blaine's hair. "If you'd really do anything for me, you have to quit the pills. You just have to, Blaine. Okay?"

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"You have nothing to thank me for," Blaine whispered, kissing the nape of Sebastian’s neck. He felt bad because he knew that he would once again be lying to Sebastian when he got more pills from Puck, but he couldn’t go without the pills. He thought for certain that he would go mad if the nightmares started again.

"I do, though. You've been here for me, and I really, really appreciate it." Sebastian whispers softly, looking up at Blaine. His heart broke when he thought about his boyfriend practically living on the pills, and he knew he had to make sure Blaine was healthy.

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Blaine nodded, knowing that he couldn’t sleep because of how many pills he down earlier. But he would fake it for the sake of Sebastian. He snuggled into Sebastian’s warmth.

Sebastian sighed happily, resting his head on Blaine's chest, sneaking an arm slowly around his waist. Now, he was content and happy with being in his boyfriend's arms. "Thank you.." He found the courage to murmur softly. "For being so great."

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Blaine sighed, gently putting two fingers under Sebastian’s chin and tilting his face to kiss him. He didn’t want to press on the subject and create more insanity tonight. “I love you.”

"I love you too." Sebastian whispered, pressing his lips to Blaine's gently. He kissed his boyfriend for a few moments before pulling back. "Sleep..?" He asked softly, pushing himself back against the pillows, looking to Blaine for his answer.

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Blaine smiles a little, returning the soft kiss that Sebastian presses to his lips. “Okay,” he agrees, holding onto Sebastian a bit tighter. “You know, I want you to be healthy and safe too,” Blaine states, hoping Sebastian knew that he was well aware of the fact that he wasn’t eating.

Sebastian bites his lip, sighing softly. "I know.. I know you do. I just.. I have a lot going on right now, Blaine. But I really am fine. I'm fine." He explains, looking down, unwilling to meet Blaine's eyes. He didn't want to see the disappointment on his boyfriend's face.

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"I know and I love you, too. It’s just sometimes…I can’t help but wonder if I’m just dreaming all of this up," Blaine stated honestly. He threaded his fingers through Sebastian’s soft hair, contemplating his words.

Sebastian chuckles softly, holding his boyfriend close. "You aren't, I promise." He hums softly, pressing a kiss to his lips quickly before pulling back. "I'm here for you, and it's not a dream. Okay? I just want you healthy. And safe."

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Blaine nodded at the mention of laying down. He knew that he wouldn’t sleep because of the pills, but he wanted to be close to Sebastian. He lied in Sebastian’s arms as the boy motioned him over, draping his own arm over Sebastian’s middle as he smiled up at the boy. “Thank you for being here,” he whispered softly.

"You don't have to thank me, you know. I'm here because I'm your boyfriend and I love you and I just want you to be okay." Sebastian whispers, closing his eyes and resting his head on Blaine's chest with a soft exhale.

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As Blaine held onto Sebastian, it was even more obvious how much weight the boy had managed to lose in such a short amount of time. He could feel the boy’s back muscles and ribs through his shirts and his arms were thinner too. He knew what was happening because Cooper had gone on a weight loss bender in his youth. Sebastian’s body was loosing muscle because Sebastian wasn’t eating and that was one of the worst things that could happen. He knew that approaching the subject with Sebastian now would only cause frustration, so he put it off deciding to come up with a more sleuth solution.

Sebastian sighed softly, pulling away from the  gentle embrace. "I'm, uh, I've just been really tired lately. Can we just lay down?" He asks softly, kicking off his shoes before moving back against the pillows, laying down and opening his arms as a motion for Blaine to join him as he yawns quietly.

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Blaine nodded, smiling a real smile for once. He was glad Sebastian was going to be there for him. It made the idea a lot less terrifying. He wondered if his parents would even notice if he started going to a shrink. Probably not. He wrapped his own arms around Sebastian and rested his head on the boy’s shoulder.

Sebastian give Blaine a small smile back, wrapping his arms back around Blaine's waist, kissing the top of his head. He let out a slow breath, closing his eyes. He was tired and his midsection was smaller than the previous week, but he hoped Blaine wouldn't notice, although he was sure his boyfriend would pick up on the signs. He knew he'd lost weight, but he hoped he could put it off enough in front of Blaine to make Blaine believe him.