Ruby King

I didn’t say it gave them any excuse. Because it doesn’t. The “good ones” aren’t the only ones who are hurting and what not. Everyone else is hurting just as bad, and none of them are lashing out. If someone thinks they have it bad, someone has it worse. How would things be easier? Then you would be lashing out right now and then you’d be considered a hypocrite.

I dont know....people might not hate me as much as they do? but then again if I had been a goodie goodie, maybe things wouldnt have been as fun, but then maybe i wouldnt have as many regrets? Well one of life's mysteries I guess.

Well, a lot of the “good ones” are the ones who are smack in the middle of the mess, so I kinda expect them to be on edge.

Oh right. Right, so that gives them the excuse of snapping at there's and blah blah blah. I wish Id chosen the life of the goodie two shoes, things mightve been easier. 

But you’re right. Everybody needs a pick-me-up right now.

But in all serious, yes this place is don and it hasnt been up in a while. Even the good ones are on edge alll the time. Trust me Id know if they'd get ticked.

To be honest, I don’t fucking care how this started. I didn’t want it to be this bad, I really didn’t want to get in a fight at all, but then you had to go acting like I walk around thinking I deserve everyone’s attention. I would love not to have every fucking person know everything that goes on in my life. I don’t thrive on that, and when you started acting like I did it pissed me off. So I’m sorry that it seemed like I was made at you for having no friends, but I would never get mad at someone over something so out of their hands. I’m not proud of myself, why would I just for yelling at you? I snapped to start off with, sure, but then I was just standing up for myself, sorry if that took you by surprise. So, I am soooo sorry that you feel like you don’t have anyone to lose, but maybe one of these days, someone will die, and you’ll think, hmm wow I really will miss that person. That you really did have someone to lose, or maybe you won’t but I don’t know, because I’m not going to act like I know your whole fucking story just like you are acting like you know mine. And you know what, whether you fucking like it or not, I got mad at you for acting like I was doing something wrong by being upset. No matter how you took it, or how it came out, that’s what pissed me off, and I don’t feel good about myself, but I sure don’t feel bad either, because I promise I didn’t just get mad at you for the fun of it, I was standing up for myself, and that’s not something I usually do…

To be honest, I wasnt really listening to anything you just said. Youre still mad, im taking the blame for it yet again, So I think ill just go. Youve got out your anger blah blah blah, apparently thats what im here for. *mumbles *Got the scar to prove it....Anyways, See ya Sutt, hope your boy toy revives, and i hope you can talk to all your friends again. See ya. *Takes two fingers and makes a wave good bye, walking off*

Okay. Clearly that’s not a fight I’m going to win. You go ahead and be upset if you want to. I’ll go ahead and be upset if I want to, and clearly there was a big fucking misunderstanding as to why I got mad, because I assure you that I didn’t yell at you just because you say you have no friends. I said I don’t want fake sympathies, so if that’s what they are, then I don’t want them.

Oh no, you yelled at me because I didnt care that you were sad. Remember? Then I said I don't have any friends, therefore hadnt lost anyone, then you said i don't have anyone to lose, and that you should be able to be sad. So yeah, thats why you started yelling at me. Proud of yourself right? Yell at the girl who just doesnt feel empathy for you because I had no fucking body to lose. Bet you feel good about yourself. 

I don’t fucking care is it gives me things other people don’t have. None of that shit means anything if I don’t have Will and Roisin. If you think I don’t know how many people know me, and talk about me, and “care” about me, then you are wrong. But the world is full of fakes, and half the people who talk to me just do it because they want the status. Just because I have a lot of people who care about me, doesn’t mean I can’t be sad over all the people I lost, so don’t fucking tell me that I can’t be upset just because I have a lot of friends. I don’t want your fake sympathy, so if that’s what that is, take it back.

Never said you cant be upset either.Stop making god damn assumptions. You got mad at me for not being upset remember? Yeah, because i dont have friends to be sad over, i got yelled at. See thats where things are fucking messed up. So go cry over your lost friends. Ill keep my sympathies I guess ya know, if you really don't want them. 

Oh please. Did I say I wanted all the heartbreak reserved for me? You are the one who is acting like they don’t give a fuck about what’s going on, so please, if you’d like some heartbreak with a little side of hating yourself, be my guest. And don’t throw around the name Head Girl like it makes me so different than anyone else. I have never acted as if the title should earn me any special treatment, so you can leave that the fuck out of this conversation. 

Why not? Dont deny it gives you something above the rest of us whether you want it or not. People treat you differently, when things happen to you, people care. Now whether thats good caring or bad caring, people still fucking care. Youve still got people who care about you, people to hang with. Yeah sure this decree was made, sure it took your friends from you, but im sure youll live since you have so many other fucking people. But in all seriousness, have my greatest sympathies. 

So congrats on being fucking dandy. I hope it feels nice, not being heartbroken all the time. I can’t recall the feeling. 

Oh? So should I reserve the heartbroken feeling for you? Head girl must get all our god damn sympathy...

And all the shit fucking sucks. 

I'd say I'm still fucking dandy right?

Mary Kate Wiles