???

I'm aware of who I am

I tried to change myself

I remember it like it was just yesterday and...I hate it

She wanted to see me in someplace on the balcony

I saw her standing there, arms on the railing and hair blowing by the wind

I walked towards her and before I could even say a word she said something..."You're finally here"

After that there was just...silence

It was getting awkward so I told her what she wanted to talk about

She turned her head slightly and she sighed

And there was silence again

I was trying to think what could've possibly been happening right now, there's just silence and it's freaking me out

Maybe she's just taking some fresh air and clearing her mind out

And once she's done she'll begin talking, maybe vent?

While I was thinking she began to move around

She put her left hand by the railing and turned towards

She looked directly to my eyes and then...she smiled

She smiled like I don't know how to describe it

Her smile, it was some kind of smile that tells you that they have everything figured out

It was the kind of smile that tells you that it was happiest they have ever been

"Thank you..."

What?

"Thank you for everything...!for everything you've done. You were a great friend"

I'm confused...are we ending our friendship???

She walked towards me and placed her hand on my shoulder

She's smiling and told me that..."Please don't ever talk to me again"

HUH???

I'm confused???

For a second there when she said thank you I thought she was gonna jump off but she just kinda walked away

That was weird...I didn't know what happened after that other than that I went home and got to sleep

The next day I woke up still thinking about what happened last night

I opened my phone and decided to text her but she doesn't seem to be in my contacts

I think she blocked me...

I'm confused did I do something wrong?

I'm not that kind of guy to do so and if I did I'll kneel down apologizing...well not literally

I decided to start my day and then maybe stop at her house to get some sort of explanation

When I got there...there was nobody

There was a sign outside her house saying FOR SALE like nobody is leaving there

It's like she just disappeared

My other friends came by to also get some explanation from her

They said that she met up with them last night and told them to never talk to her again

That was odd...if she's just going to move out she could've just said that, something doesn't add up

We decided to text our other friends and meet-up at a diner and talk about ████████

It was almost noon, everyone had arrived

She told all of us the same thing last night, she talked to all of us one by one in a different place with no difference in her words

We tried to recall things that we've done that might've caused her to leave

From what we got nobody did anything wrong, nobody had a grudge against her and even we did something wrong it's weird that she'll move out just like that

There has to be something

We tried our best to figure out what was wrong

But in the end, everything fell apart

It seems like no matter what some things are just meant to leave unanswered

It just makes me more careless than before

don't want to go to school anymore...

Really?

Why is that so?

I don't know I just...

I'm tired...

That doesn't sound like you at all!

The ████████ I know doesn't talk like that!

You were smart, how can you just let yourself fall just like that?

...

It's stupid you know?

You were so eager to prove to others that you're not stupid but here you are letting yourself become well...

A fool!

...

Nothing to say?

I just don't feel like it...

...?

You were right, I was trying to prove that I'm not to be put aside, that I'm just like the other kids...smart & intelligent...

But...it just doesn't feel like me

I never wanted to learn science, they were great but not something I'll pursue...

I've always loved to make art, it's something that...

I see...

...?

You really are an IDIOT

!?

Oh you sweet child...

I thought you were getting mature

What does that have to do with school???

You really are a fool...still the same dumb and immature girl ████████!!!

I-

You'll never grow...aren't you???

I'm close to the legal age but I have no idea what to do beyond then

I know I have to because of grades and all but I don't have that same ball of energy before

My only precious item that I had left was found broken

My anger...I can't control it

I'm not in the mood to do anything

My guardians...I thought they'll understand especially Mister 🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱

...

They were mad at me...Why me? Because I wrecklessly broke my phone before...?

Apparently it's all me now...

I can't take it anymore so I walked away

I decided maybe I should go for a walk and look for a place to take some fresh air

I planned to just go by the river but I decided maybe I should go further and walk to the market far from 🏱🏱🏱🏱

When I was halfway there I thought maybe I should go even further and go to my 🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱 which might take me over an hour

I reached the highway and began the long journey

As I walked through, I couldn't help myself but hold my breath because of the toxic chemicals coming out of the vehicles while walking by the sidewalk

I'm not even walking by the side honestly

There's not even a sidewalk because the government is stupid

I remember reading on my phone that car business is just giving away cars whenever or whatever

Great contribution for pollution isn't it?

I reached another town and the smell is even worse

Toxic smoke from vehicles, rotten fishes were everywhere

I tried to walk faster so I can no longer smell those horrid smells

I reached a few trees nearby and thought I might take a rest and smell the nature

Well kinda...the toxic smoke is still there...

It drives me insane to smell those stupid gases that they've successfully made me give up my mission in going to 🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱🏱

I turned back around and walked backwards but at least my head is cleared now

My feet were dirty from walking in the concrete road and muddy water by the drainage

I was not happy to be back...

You're curiousity has been answered, there is nothing to look for