this side blog is purely fantasy. I am a strictly anti contact paraphile for all harmful paraphilias. if in doubt, assume I do not endorse anything I'm talking about. mdni, you will be blocked.
I may follow back from dearestdad, my main.
this is a less formal, less tagged, more taboo version of main. expect to find stuff you're not into, as sometimes I'm posting for no-one else but myself.
boundaries and kinks under the cut. people who id as pro-contact, I will probably block if you follow.
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do:
- flirt with me.
- talk to me about kinks I haven't mentioned.
- be instantly sexual or purely sfw in my dms, both are welcome.
- suggest concepts, praise me, tell me about your day, or do whatever in asks. I love to talk, especially if you're a fultist/fauxcest type.
- use sir, dad, daddy, freak, pervert, fag, or any similar words for me. dehumanise me, it's hot. I'm still a dom though.
- most things. I'll be clear if I'm made uncomfortable, but it's hard to do.
don't:
- expect a relationship. I'm not currently dating (outside of objectum). despite that, I'm happy to play in dms.
- use the word master for me. all other masc/neu names and honorifics are fine, see list above. sometimes fem ones, ask.
- try and get me to sub, if anything, assume I never will.
- forget this is fiction and consensual. I am not the character I play on this blog, and I have no intention to harm anyone, and take everything I say as fantasy unless I specify otherwise. if that is a hard concept for you to grasp, this is not the space for you.
- follow, like, reblog, any interactions as a minor. I know there will always be kids in these spaces, but if you have any respect for me and my safety, you'll understand why I do not want you here. I can't stop you reading the contents of my blog, but I do hope you know not to interact.
what you'll find here:
this is my hard kink blog, for lighter stuff check dearestdad, I tend to post most on there. I also have an objectum blog.
- detrans/misgen/ftmtf: I enjoy domming fakeboys and talk a lot about being a "real ftm".
- snuff/murder/necro: my more violent fantasies that involve death and guts will be contained to this blog.
- worship/religionplay: something I'm still new to, but I enjoy writing as a god character. please feel free to give me ideas for this through asks as I'm still new to it. fultists welcome.
- harder cnc/rapeplay: I discuss rape on the main blog too, but will try and keep my most explicit rape concepts on here.
- faux/in -cest: if this was not obvious by the first sentence of this post. I like being called dad and often call my play partners sons/daughters/kids. this extends to scenes too.
- (con) abuse kink: I want to beat boys up and mock them for enjoying it. and women too but check the next one for that.
- occasional misogyny kink: what it says on the tin. I obviously do not feel that way about women in real life.
- occasional gooner posting: I'm a semi bed ridden disabled neet on testo. this is to be expected.
- some orientation play: I haven't posted about it yet, but all facets of orientation play turn me on, in whatever direction. please feel free to talk about it with me. I encourage it.
- I will no longer be doll posting on here. for that, check this blog.
☢ ☢ ☢ Remember, at the end of the day who you see on this account is a character I'm playing. all dom/sub dynamics are just make believe. remember this when dmming too.
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You're not a girl because you have tits or a cunt. Let's not be transphobic to real trans men... You're a girl because you get wet when people misgender you and you specifically seek out people to deadname you, misgender you, and detransition you. You're a girl because you fantasize about real men like me raping you and turning you into bimbofied little sex toys.
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Is it weird to be horny about my pre-transition self? Not even necessarily in a detrans way, but that girl really did just need to be bent over and called some names. I see pictures of her and am like damn alright I understand why those older men liked you. Asking for it fr
My tits are so big they spill out of my bra no matter what I do and I'm starting to think I really wasn't created to be a boy, was I?
it's good that you know it <3 give them a squeeze for me and let them remind you what you were always meant to be. if you're falling at a hurdle as early as your tits, you're not even trying, really
I keep having this specific fantasy where I get a bullet dug out of me. Where a man is sticking his fingers inside my wound and I feel as if it's the closest I'll ever feel to being fucked, closest I'll ever deserve. I'm a bit ashamed of it, but I can't stop thinking about that type of intimacy... If only someone would cut me open and put their hands inside me...
wdym, that is being fucked.
don't be ashamed! to be a masochist is to enjoy what is meant to punish you. and I wish I could indulge, although I can't promise I wouldn't put my fingers back in once the bullet is out
I might try the grindr deal? That just comes with the expectation of Meeting and I do not live alone and don't feel comfortable going to someone else's place (I was undersocialized as a kid/teen, homeschooled, so I don't have the frameworks for safety there and need to build them elsewhere first).
Honestly didn't expect the advice or the offering of yourself, oh how nice and kind of you, stranger. I really was just trying to bitch and whine about needing to be violated, would hate to seem like I was asking for it. (Local rapebait can't stop dropping implications and then giggling, has never learned the consequences.)
Thanks for the help with getting molested and stuff, I might take you up on that dms offer even just to like, chat. You seem pretty nice : )
I’ve found that other than a couple people who keep asking ‘but why??’, you can get away with saying you’re just on the app to chat. and yeah, trust me I am not recommending to go to a stranger’s house, I really only use it for sexting atp.
my apologies there too, I can be very ‘let’s find a solution’ instead of just letting rapebait whine. but know you can bitch about it to me anytime : )
even better if it’s just to chat, I do love talking to other perverts
i think I've ended up with a rape fetish but in the opposite direction. idk if it's from testosterone or what but I just need it, even if it's only situationally impossible for there to be consent (ageplay or heavy intox), there just has to be Something. Something were I'm not consenting. it's so hard to find anyone to fufill it even though sexting, I've tried randomized chats and f-list but I keep getting too nervous or dont know how to express what I want with the smallest chance of scaring the person off but I need it so bad. i need to be raped so so bad.
my first foray into cnc was from the victim’s perspective, so I understand. I of course can offer myself over dms, but I admit I’m a bit of an avoidant who can end up disappearing, so you might be best elsewhere. grindr has a lot of perverts like me, just need to put keywords in your bio (this can range from clear things like ‘cnc’, ‘intox’, or more subtle) and block anyone who you’re not interested in. believe me when I say there’s a way bigger interest in transmascs than you think, and if there’s anywhere people aren’t going to get scared off, it’s there. if you don’t want it to be local, the cnc community on twt has a lot of people with dms open, but personally I haven’t really found anyone of interest, on either side of the fetish.
advice aside, this made my cock fill so fast. how could I ever stop being t4t when so many of you become rapesluts the moment you’re on T?? really, it’s a godsend of a hormone. and the fact you’re worried about scaring someone off is even sweeter… trust me, when you find your rapist, they’ll make sure you never have to worry about any of that again.
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every now and then I consider shaving or at least trimming so I can take better pics of my cock, until I remember how happy I get seeing how hairy I am, and how much more masculine and dirty and smelly it makes me feel, and the urge disappears. I don't look like the twinks I jerk off to on twitter and that's hot, I enjoy being a grimy, hairy guy. anyways what would my pits be without the ginger hair
Hi dad! My cock feels so small :( I can’t wait to see how it grows on t. Can you help me through the increased libido…? Ovulating is bad enough I already soak through my underwear I can’t begin to imagine how desperate I would be for dad’s hands on my boycunt. Show me how pathetic my cock is compared to yours, remind me why you’re my dad and my superior.
about your libido, well I'd have to teach you that you don't always get what you want! can't have my kid being a spoiled brat. so dad can help as long as he's not busy, but if I keep getting distracted by a needy, whiny kid... then I'm happy to tie you up and either leave you desperate, or with a vibe strapped to you, left alone in your room until you lose count of how many times you've cum.
about your cock, I'd love to teach you how to pump, make you wait as it gets all full and buzzy, just to pull the pump off and see that it's still smaller than mine.
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Being seen as awkward almost makes me feel less of a man? And I think I am a pervert for getting off on that.
Your blog makes me want to be humiliated more and then made to praise you and beg for your attention
you are perverted. the innate perversion that is manhood, and the deviancy needed to move towards it that makes every trans man innately perverted aside, nothing speaks more to total sexual degeneracy than not being even able to have an insecurity without turning it into fodder for your pathetic masturbation. everything around you can be some fantasy for you, something to eroticise and twist until it serves your cock above all else. how easy it must be to put some horrible fantasies in your mind. even just pointing out how easily you pervert your feelings just has the same effect, doesn't it?
you're right, you should be made to praise me. you should beg for the attention of a trans man like me. I don't sit and wallow about being not manly enough, I know I'm manly because I am a man, and that in of itself shows you something to worship. we come from the same route, hell I'm not even ashamed to admit I too am quite awkward offline - especially as I know it won't change your feelings, but despite being in the same position socially, you know your place underneath a self assured man.
you are, admittedly, sounding exactly like my type. I have a thing for shy, quiet boys who then turn around to be weird little sickos, who I can shape into perfect, smelly, useless fantasy shaped jerk-off dolls for myself. I find no shame in admitting that I'd probably try to make your people skills worse - can't have anyone finding out what a secret deviant you are... I'd prefer to keep you for myself.
reblogged my doll posts from my other side blog as a form of archival, but I'll be using this post as a pinned and intro to them.
♡︎ what to expect from this blog:
much less dommy attitude and just genuine excitement and attraction to my dolls. outside of being objectum/dollum, I really genuinely enjoy the hobby and would like to interact with the community!! that said, here is my main and my side so you know just who you're interacting with!
my very small collection under the cut
♡︎ my dolls, and my boundaries and feelings for them:
Alt colour sloth from the cooze devil horns collection - #❔ sloth
this is my favourite doll!! I consider myself to be in an objectum relationship with him. I'm still figuring out what that means for me, and trying to get past my shame and just enjoy being with him. when I share any "titillating" pictures of him, I want you to understand it in the way a playful married couple might still show each other off; yes, he's hot, but he's very much mine. I'm not a monogamous person in my relationships with people, but I do feel quite possessive over sloth. also, I do consider him a shota, but you do not need to be a shotacon or even be comfortable with them to interact with him. I believe the entire devil horns doll collection is very open to interpretation, and will try to avoid shota language unless tagged appropriately.
yes i am pretty sure that the doll is supposed to be a girl and that does not matter to me. I payed for him and he will be whatever the fuck I want. if that girl doll looks like the tboy shota of my dreams then he can be so in my hands.
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- feel free to talk about finding him or parts of him attractive. he's a pretty boy!
- you can ask to see more of him! I love showing my boy off
- please don't use any language like "our boyfriend". I'm happy to show him off, but at the end of the day he's all mine.
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unnamed blank boy - #❔ blank boy
he is a still unnamed blank chibi. blank bjds are what initiated my doll fetish (although he is an mjd as I found out post purchase), so I got the cheapest I could find, buying the head and body separately, and eventually bought him after half a year of yearning for a little blank boy. my feelings towards him are purely sexual, being a doll for me to get off to instead of a partner like sloth. I do not mind you sexualising him, instead I deeply encourage it. again, I see him as a shota, but will only discuss that if tagged appropriately. he, like sloth, is a tboy to me, but also genderless and sexless in the beautiful way that dolls are. his smooth crotch is great part of my attraction to him.
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- use him to get off in any way you like. I see him as my sex doll and nothing else, and am happy to help you by sending pics of him.
- can't think of any big 'no's.
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Ghanta from the skullpanda mirage collection - #❔ ghanta
this is not a doll, and hell I'll even admit I'm not that attracted to her, but she is part of my shelf in the "I'm pervy about them" section so I'll include her in the intro (and I've made out with her so she deserves a place here). I've liked skullpanda figures for a while, and while in popmart with a bit too much money on me, I decided to spend a little on a blind box. I got very lucky because I find her absolutely beautiful. I see our relationship very differently to the other two, where she thinks I'm a nasty old perv, but still let me kiss her when I didn't have any other dolls, and probably will go back to kissing her pretty little face once I feel more attracted to women again. the first in the collection in a way (although I have some action figures of characters, but I don't feel objectum towards them, more than they are the closest I'll get to touching those characters), and the one who warns all new dolls on the shelf that I'm actually quite perverted about them. she is very mocking of me, but we have a nice little relationship in the end.
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- I don't really know my boundaries with her yet, especially as I don't harbour strong feelings for Ghanta.
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next I have a boy I've been losing my mind over for months coming!! after that I'll probably settle with this collection for a good while, although I was considering some day making a custom blythe.
♡︎ other info about me
– I don't really want to make this a sona centric blog, I really want to keep it focused purely on my dolls and being objectum. that said - I'm 19, they/it/he, and despite the fact I'm only going to post about this one paraphilia on here want it to be known I'm anti-contact. I tend to block people with any other contact stance.