Growing pains

mood tonight

learning to live within my means.

I DO NOT get it man....I am a beautiful woman, I tell you,  I’m a fucking catch...like 80 percent of the time or at least that’s what my bff tells me (god bless her face and her )..... annd there’s like--NO DICK to be had for me. None. 

Isn’t it it the fucking age old bit that if you’re a woman, and you’re somewhat showing signs of life (because that’s apparently the only criteria) then you spend your days beating men off with a stick. Just beating the poor bastards off. Right? Isn’t that generally accepted as being based in truth? SO what is that telling me? What I want to know is WHERE IS ALL THE SAUSAGE THAT’S SUPPOSEDLY BEING TOSSED IN THE DIRECTION OF MY FACE?? Because I just ran the numbers recently and statistically, of all the dicks that I encounter there’s only 1 one of them in my face every say every 1,5- 2 months or so, which is a sad 6 dicks a year. If you’re in a relationship, I get it, that’s a surplus of five dicks, which can be troublesome, BUT IF YOU’RE AN ATTRACTIVE (again going with what friend keeps telling me) SINGLE WOMAN who is actively AND READY TO MINGLE then you do start to wonder what the fuck the problem is.

it's the last night of winter. but i swear the ceiling of my room flew away just now and the darkness is huge and there are stars everywhere. i can see my breath in the cold night air. damn it's cold but it's sad too, and it's beautiful. nothing in the world but his voice