1000 Forms of Blanca

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! And the world was slightly weirder because 22 years ago I came in and cried out, “GET READY WORLD, I’M ABOUT TO ROCK YOUR SOCKS OFF!!!!!”

22 Things I learned on the way to my 22nd Birthday. 

1.Nobody is really watching what you’re doing! 

Often times we are convinced that somebody is watching and waiting for us to do something embarrassing. So what do we do? We let that keep us from trying new experiences and having fun! STOP doing THAT! Trust me the only person who is watching are the haters and they’re going to hate regardless if you fail or succeed.

2. Do something awesome while no one’s watching. 

I have loved doing small things that no one would even think, oh wow that’s actually really nice of you! Like cheering up the girl who got dumped by making her laugh. Or helping out the new guy who’s flirting it up with the girl next to him. They’ll never know and they aren’t HUGE gestures but they can make such a huge difference in someones life. 

3.Don’t sweat the small stuff, remember you can always turn it around.

789It is common to have something bad happen in the morning and see it as an omen for a bad day. My advice is to you is EVERYTIME you have a bad thing happen just say “ I can turn this around!”

4.Try to better your life in any sense.

Whether it’s swearing less or eating better but try to do something that will make you better or at least feel that way. Watch documentaries, you'll learn something! I love documentaries! 

5. Eat Cereal.

It can be healthy or sugary or what ever! Every once in a while,  eat a bowl of cereal. You hunched over a bowl slurping milk and munching on soggy/crunchy grains should bring back some pretty sweet nostalgia.  

6.Believe in Something 

Life is rough, whether you believe in the energies of life, God, Krishna, a piece of toast with the image of Jesus Christ. Believe in something, it’ll push you to hold on something bigger than yourself and get you through some pretty rough situations and pull you out the deep dark depths of the unknown and doubts that are torturing you. 

7. Do whatever you want with YOUR hair.

Don’t let anyone tell you, that you’re too old to have purple streaks in your hair or that your hair looks better short vs long. Your hair will always grow back, now how long that will take is maybe what’ll want to consider before you do it. Still do whatever you want to do it’s your hair. 

8. Enjoy the out doors.

A video posted by Blanca | Estella (@theoddpotato) on Mar 22, 2015 at 1:02pm PDT

Nature is one of the greatest gifts mother earth offers. I love going outside, I feel such a great sense of peace when I breath in the air and feel the wind in my hair and the sun on my cheeks. Sometimes we are stuffed up at work and home, get out a little and feel the grass in between your toes! 

9. Listen to the lyrics. 

Sometimes all we hear is the beat, and personally if it ain’t got good lyrics it’s not for me. There are people who love the beat I think it’s called techno, surprise it’s not my favorite. Some people find it some what lyrical and that’s totally fine, but just listen to the lyrics. It’s amazing sometimes they’ll be singing about something you’re going through and it’s just what you need to hear. P.S. Techno people I respect you and your music I just don’t like it.

10. Hug everyone, especially if they’re crying.

Try not to go around hugging random strangers because if you get arrested and blame it on me. I’ll say this “PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR BUTT, USE COMMON SENSE.” Don’t make me hug you around your neck, in a special hold that will put you out. ANYWAYS, yeah hug people you know are okay with it. Little unicorn sparks are transferred from body to body when hugs are exchanged. This happens because Unicorns fart glitter at night, YOUR WELCOME WORLD! Yeah bottom line hug people, they will feel better and so will you. 

11. Carry a joke in your pocket.

I get angry and people get sad/mad too, I typically cry when I’m frustrated. Majorie Hinckley said, “I rather laugh than cry, crying gives me headaches.” It’s true! So Laugh! That’s why you need to carry a really funny or stupidly funny joke in your pocket; because you never know when that might be the perfect medicine for a rough day or intense moment.  

12. Love your car.

You know 3 years old model you're driving, or that clunker that’s getting you from point A to point B. Love it! It’s a old piece a junk, maybe it’s not that new Ferrari your boss is driving around but it’s YOUR car. Cars are kind of like people, they’ve been through a lot. Once they get old they’re not gonna be the speed demons they use to be. Just think about how they feel when they let you down, they would love to be the mini van that was reliable and got kids to soccer practice; now maybe the AC isn’t at full function and you gotta wiggle something before you get it to finally to work. Love your car, it’s served it’s purpose and now it’s on it’s dying days or just aging. Love it. Kind of like our elderly.. Love them especially. Old people rock. 

13. Get over it.

Let it go, my friend recently said this to me “If they don’t matter anymore then why am I going to put the energy towards hating them”  and I was like ummm YEAH! And then my mom was singing “Why do you think you’re so important? I don’t even look for you to hate you.” STOP being a hater and really just LET IT GO. They are not worth a single thought anymore, move on with your life. 

14. Know your worth.

This is probably one of the most important things you could do, know your self worth. A few ways of doing this is, serving others, traveling anywhere, and exercising (it helps you to push your self and really test what you can endure). You are an amazing wonderful person that deserves anything you want, don’t let anyone make you feel otherwise.  

15. Write things down. 

I don’t keep a daily journal, but I do keep a notebook where whenever anything strikes me I’ll write it down, or when I have to bite my tongue and need to vent I’ll write it down. So I have a note book full of random things I’ve got to schedule or liked, they’re fun to read through because it lets me kind of time travel. 

16. Take on Challenges every once in a while. 

We often settle for an easy life or are complacent, don’t be like that. If a challenge presents it’s self do it! Failing isn’t the worse thing you could do, living a life that isn’t as good as you is the worst and scariest thing you could do. Push your self to do something hard or something new, no regrets (no regurts.)

17. Have a favorite treat.

It’s better to be healthy and active, but don’t let that keep you from having a treat that’s just for you. That pick me up or a thing that will celebrate your achievements. Whether it’s a hobby, one of mom/dad’s famous plates, or a TVs show. Have a little comfort treat. 

18. Love your family.

Let there be something within you that is stronger than reason, let it be the love for your family. Our families aren’t perfect and can often be rotten, but we were placed in them for a reason. You shouldn’t tolerate manipulative or harmful behavior but you should love them and care for them even when they’re aren’t the best. I’m sure they’ve done it for you too!

19. Consider your friends family. 

If you get lucky you will meet amazing people in your life that will go great lengths for you. They are wonderful humans who have come to love you because of who you are. Consider them as family, because sometimes they don’t have great families and you might be the closest thing they have right now.  

20. Escape. 

Ride to a park, ride down to a city an hour away, or if you have the means fly to a new place. When your life feels chaotic or too routine, then escape. Stop letting people tell you that you’re running away from your problems. Yeah so what!? I’m not running away forever just for today, I want to forget and just have a moment to feel like I’m gonna be okay. 

21. Treat Yo Self. 

When you feel like you deserve something, TREAT YO SELF. When you’re just having a rough day, TREAT YO SELF. When you finally let go of that funny looking idiot who thought he was your world, TREAT YO SELF. WITHIN REASON PEOPLE, biggest pet peeve when people dissect things and correct them or are just looking to hate. EW! Get out of here, the rest of you, TREAT YO SELF!

22.Be happy. 

Do what makes you happy, I’m surprised when sometimes I have to tell people that. Stop being scared of things that can go wrong or letting others tell you what’s best for you. DO what makes you happy, make mistakes, then go crazy, make it important to do whatever it is that will make you happy. 

I love you all and I hope you appreciate every day you’re alive and party it up, when it’s another year that you’re still kicking and screaming on this earth. I look forward to getting wrinkly and sassier. May I be able to keep my lipstick on my lips for as long as I can, and when it starts to get on my teeth and outside of my lips may I not give a dang. Please let me rock the elastic pants and forgetfulness. I love you all thanks for always reading. 

xoxo,

It is the hardest thing to eat healthy, often we are confused on what it means and think it takes an enormous amount of work. This year as I’ve tackled the challenge I’ve learned a few things that I want to share in hopes you can see a small improvement in your life.

1. Give yourself the credit!

It is tough to change your eating habits and exercise routine, but make sure that just because you aren’t quickly smashing the bigger goals, you mope and forget to take in stride the small victories! 

2. Take it to social media! 

We are all sick of the gym selfies but instead of drinking gallons of haterade, use them as motivation! Find a person who you admire out in the workout world of fame and start following them! You’ll find that on Instagram it is easy to find motivation and a small support group. You just need to use good hashtags and other work enthusiast will like your progress you post or even follow you! #fitfam

3. EAT YOUR FRUITS AND VEGGIES. 

It’s been said time and time again! It’s super important though, as you start to eat fruits and veggies you will see that it helps push the other junk you eat out of your system. Fiber is an important part of any diet and it’s a lot healthier and nutritious if you get it from a fruit or veggie rather than a powder or bar. Start with a small goal of one fruit or veggie a day, or three a week whatever fits your life style. You want to strive for actual fruit and veggies that are fresh but if all you time or can do is in a can. DO IT! The thing is to get it in your thinking process that you need it every single day! 

4. Educate yourself!

My favorite part of eating healthy is having the knowledge about what each food I eat does for my body. It makes me super excited to eat! Do you PINTEREST? Of course you might! If you go on pinterest and search any fruit/veggie followed by benefits you will get a quick short image or a link that will tell you of all the great things this fruit/veggie can do for you. I felt a lot more motivated to eat them after I found out about all the great things it did for my body! 

5.Don’t eat till you’re sick to your stomach, eat til you’re full. 

I know we all do it, when there’s something absolutely amazing and delicious. You’ll eat till you’re pants rip or you can’t imagine taking one more bite...STOP doing that! You’re stomach grows and you’ll want to consume more and more food.  

 6.Make a workout plan.

Start small but work up to it! Let’s start walking twice a week around the neighbor hood and then pick another activity if you have time once you’ve gotten a regular schedule worked out add more days or more activities. Don’t be hard on yourself if you don’t make it to all your workouts, remember next week is a new week and you can do better!

7.Do it for your health and so you’re not a statistic.

Sure you can do it to be lean,skinny,and have big muscles. The greatest thing you can do though is to be healthier and not fall into any category or be a statistic. Do it because it’s the right thing to do! Your body is a temple and you need to take care of it because if you don’t nobody else will!

I hope you enjoyed this and you find some help in it! Let me know if you get any results with any of this I would love to know of just the slightest progress you’ve made! 

Love always from the bottom of my heart, 

Today was an interesting day, I did a lot of self reflection. It was a little chaotic but in this busy day I some how managed to fit an AHA! moment in my to do list. My sister received a scholarship today and it made me think about my life and what I was doing with it. See I’ve been to college twice and flunked out. Yup, it’s not something I’m proud of it, and for the longest time it got me down. So today when I was nit picking my life, I thought about how in the past two years my life has changed so much. I flunked out of college, I went from a dental hygiene student to a I have no idea what I’m doing. I dated a guy who I thought I was going to marry but ended up single and dating a guy who confused the crap out of me and lastly ending up with a really awesome guy who I was just not into. I lost my aunt who was like a mother to me, my best friend in the whole world lost her mom and her world was turned up side down and my family struggled together through my mother’s illness. All this can really bring a girl down..

And yes it’s easy to just get over it be strong and accept it’s a part of life. 

It’s not? Well to me it was a little hard but overall really easy.. 

The hard part was what I did today.. was to be thankful for all those trials,and painful experiences. I’m not graduating from my dental hygiene program at weber, I’m not putting my two week notice at a job that was rough but fun. I haven’t networked and made super pretentious friends. I don’t get to go drink a glass of wine on weekends and pair it with fancy cheese, or am living with roommates in our cool apartment with our banana chair and love seat and super awesome paintings.

I’m barely returning to school to study at LDSBC a school with a bunch optimistic weirdos who believe in God like me. Instead I’m living with a crazy family who love me beyond reason, just because we’ve been together since for  21 years. I’m at a job that isn’t my favorite but is made worth it because it’s where I made friends with the weirdest and kindest people  I could ever imagined. People who changed my life and help me have confidence in myself in my pursuit of happiness. I didn’t marry the person I was sure I was suppose to be with nor did I end up with the other two wonderful people who help me put the pieces up together.

 Instead I’m on another interesting and exciting adventure with who I’m really certain would be the male version of me. P.S. Male Blanca is into programming and robots. No surprise, I figured I wouldn’t be the jock if I was a boy, instead I’d be the cute nerd who says funny sarcastic comments. Yeah he’s kind of all sorts of my kind of guy. 

ANYWAYS... I pair scripture with advice or gospel doctrine with comfort. I’m not where I want to be and in a lot of people’s eyes I could be in stupid situation all my fault and how could I have been such an idiot.. but honestly I wouldn’t want to be any where else. It’s hard to be where I am sometimes, I have to see painful reminders of plans that didn’t go according to what I wanted, I have to struggle to get to a place I could’ve been if things had just gone smoothly. I’m in the opposite place of where my life would be of things had just gone “right”. And AMAZINGLY, it’s the best place I could be right now. 

The life I would have had would be good, but right now everything is actually better, one day it will be perfect place. If I had’t gone through all of this I would not be the person I am today I wouldn’t have gone through all the things that made me cry my eyes out and wish that I could just disappear only to later realize all these “TERRIBLE” things I’ve been through were some of the GREATEST things that I could ever ask for. 

SO lesson kids? Celebrate your trials and recognize that they’ve made you a bad-ay chick or dude. YOU are amazeballs and you are closer to conquering the world every time to you have to rip through the walls of h-e-double hockey stick. I believe in you and me so let’s get out there and be happy! 

The world and all it’s craziness will make you believe that tragic events or bad experiences are bad luck but think of it as you being lucky enough to have all these chances to grow and be the strongest and best you. I love you all who read this! Thanks for the support you are all the best! Love always your favorite crazy weirdo!  Blanca Awesome Olmos ;)  

1. You always find that one person that leads you on, then cuts you off and when you finally get it and try to move on they just rope you back in.

NOOOOOOO!!! Please I just don’t want to get my heart broken over the same dumb person!!!

2. You’ll always find someone who can’t take a hint...

how can I be more clearer... I DON’T LIKE YOU. Sorry my short answers and ignoring you wasn’t more clearer....

3. You find someone who plays relationship chicken and waste your precious time. 

Soooo.... we’re not getting more serious? COOL! Just man up and tell me!

4. And then you find someone who manages to be weirder than you....

Wow, that’s so uncomfortably AWKWARD should I be impressed or scared?

5.That one person you have to explain your humor to. 

 I shouldn’t have to explain I’m hilarious, get with the program! 

6. Finding out they have a weird trait about them that you can’t get over. 

You have what and do what?! WHY?!

7. Dating the most confusing person who ends up being a jerk.

Wait we’re not using labels but you think you can grab on all of this? Oh that’s cute!  I’m the best ever when it’s convenient. Go screw your self.

8. When they say I love you way before you’ve even thought about it. 

I love youTUUUUBE, OLIVEJUICE :) You’re great! Remember how you met me like a second ago? 

9. The terrible kiss... 

I’m not going to be able to sleep after this, nightmares! REPLAYING THIS terrible moment.... 

10. He/She’s not into you but you would make good looking babies. 

At the end of the day, they’re funny stories to tell and you make a few acquaintances down the road before you finally meet “THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!”

say it how it is right? dear jerk, I hope this morning when you wake up there's no milk in the fridge and it's snowing so it's too much of a hassle to drive to the store. I hope that you run out of hot water mid shower. I hope you can't find matching socks, and that you're outfit is just horrendous. I also hope that on your way to work you get stuck behind and old lady and you're almost late to work and it scares you enough that you almost pee your pants. I hope that when you get to work you thought you forgot your lunch but it's really just in your car. And later I hope you can't talk for a second and you say a word in a funny way and no one is there to hear it so you can't have a laugh about it. I hope when you get off that there's a bunch of snow and it takes extra long to get home but that you don't care and you enjoy the view. I hope when you get home to your loved ones that you don't remember me and how you broke my heart. I hope you're happy, and that you really end up loving someone. I hope that this week goes by fast and that when you're standing there, you're excited and that it's more than you could possibly ask for. I hope that the next time you see me, it won't be as if you've seen a ghost but that you don't even flinch and I have vanished from your existence. I hope that you enjoy the rest of your life and that I never cross your mind. I hope that you'll continue to live your life as you have without realizing the pain you've caused someone. I hope you continue to believe I was crazy and I was the worst. That when you want to compare a bad experience its next to me. I hope you can sleep at night and you're never tossing in bed feeling a pointless pain you can't comprehend. I hope you realize how truly blessed you are. I hope you know over all that you were one of the foulest people I met, and even though I'm hurting right now. I'm a lot stronger than you. Anything you could possibly think about calling me is not nearly the things that you are. I hope that Karma leaves you alone and you've made peace with yourself. I forgive, but I will never forget the pain. It will one day co-exist and be a part of the past and I won't feel it anymore. The memory will be something I will leave behind and visit from time to time when someone needs compassion from me. And for a moment this week I will feel peace and as soon as you kneel before your king I hope to feels the chains release. 

It is easy to be offended, it’s harder to listen and be tolerant. This probably will be your sappy christian post, you might roll your eyes a few times. I hope if nothing else though, you can take away to do whatever makes you happy.

I was baptized in a moment, when my life was hard. It’s typical right? You only really go to the doctors when you’re sick. So that’s what I did, and my life did not change. My problems were all still there, my doubts, my worries  were all still present. The only thing that changed was that I learned about the power and meaning of faith. I learned that faith was an ACTION word, it was not something that was just said. I got to experience and see many people lean on their faith and it wasn’t necessarily a crutch. It was more like a piece of their heart, like an armor for their heart. It kept them positive, it made them believe in something it was the weirdest thing ever. At first I was skeptical but after much study and watching I examined and tried it out. It’s weird right?

I tried having faith. A lot of things happened, I experienced different feelings, I was mocked and attacked, and I felt a presence that I had never felt before. I was filled with comfort and I experienced rejection. It was a roller coaster of emotions, I wanted to get off so badly. I didn’t. It was weird, I weighed everything out and I realized that I had never been happier in my life. I had gained things I never had and things I never knew I lost. My future was full of hope and my heart was fearless, and it was all from my faith in something I had never seen nor could possibly comprehend. I had felt in my heart and for myself knew that there was someone out there who had brought to pass everything.

The world is such an amazing place, the way it works and all of the things in it can be explained to me. I still would believe in God. Why do we is exist? Why is any of this real? These are the questions that make me believe in god. I always would question my existence, it was out of depression but also of something within me that needed to feel purpose. As all humans probably do. This is the road I’ve chosen, this is my logic, it may not be logical to the world but to me it has made the most sense. It has made me happy. I hope you always search for whatever makes you happy, there is no greater feeling than to be able to be fearless and find purpose in something. Whether it’s through another tiny life, a white building, a carpet of dedication, or just taking a moment to breathe. In all this craziness, find it.

Thanks for Reading!

Your annoying friend,

It's not me, It's really you... I have been guilty for saying this once or twice, and it bugs me when other people have used it on me. It's the ABSOLUTE worst lie ever! IT'S NOT YOU, IT'S ME. What it should be actually be is, listen you're really great but I'm just not into you. So you know... basically the TROOF!

Yeah, because then what happens is this... People wait. They imagine some future where you get your life together and you two get back together. And here's the thing about that, maybe at the time you were really all over the place, trying to get your ducks in their spaces. Then you did, but then the moment had passed. And that's the thing!  Often times, you only get one shot and you have to live with how that played out. It's okay if you believe in life you'll know it's not meant to be because there are bigger and better things coming. And sometimes sadly, you screwed up and you're right you might have left something really special go. In the end though, only you know.

Now that we've talked about one the famous break up lines lets get into the fun part!

THE AFTERMATH.

I mean now that we've come to an unspoken agreement that typically this happens on one or more occasions we can try to figure out what to do. I can't tell you what will work or what you should do, all I can do is tell you what I was told and what I did.

1. You are not an idiot for being hurt, that just means you have the heart of a sweet little chick and you love people.

2. If you don't want to be cool with them, don't feel obligated to. Whether your an offender or the offendee. People I don't know why but always try to remain friends... WHAT IS THAT?! Like I get why, but at the same time WHY!? It makes it so much harder to move on with your life! I've been on both sides! I mean I actually am lying, I never try to stay in touch with my exes. Even when I break up or they break up with me. I burn their crap and I start slowly but surely moving on with my life. I'm not perfect! I have relapses, I do the calls and the hang out one more time too. What I won't do though is make us friendship bracelets after and hastag BFFS. NOPE. Everyone NEEDS to stop doing that. You can eventually one day reconcile and not be awkward but BFFS not likely without one of you secretly in love with the other.    

3. TALK ABOUT IT, eventually you'll get sick of yourself and you'll stop. You have to get everything out of your system! If your friends get tired of it, write a blog. Trust me, there's always someone who is willing to listen. If you want to get more adventurous and pray about it, whether you're religious or not. Do it! You don't have to get on your knees or clap your hands together, you don't have to go to a temple or pull out a rug. Just sit alone in silence and talk to the elements or better yet God. 4. TREAT YO SELF!

Need I say more? TREAT YO SELF! Get that haircut you wanted, workout and get that body you want, eat ice cream, climb that mountain, go down that scary slide. Binge on Netflix, read a book, plan your wedding with that one guy from One Direction! Do anything and everything that will make YOU happy! Being in a relationship is often really tough on someone sweet like YOU. YOU tend to always give more than you get, you don't just give all your money and time, but you give all your emotions and whole heart. So when it takes a little longer than usual to move on, it's because you're awesome and you're fearless and you love like a powerhouse.

5. Don't be bitter, be funny, be a little sassy, but don't be a jerk. Pain changes people, I heard lot's of times, DON'T let this change who you really are. Or you'll eventually get back to who you were, and you don't. You're never the same person again, when someone breaks your heart or puts you in the position to break a heart. It changes you, maybe not in a drastic way where you're wearing a leather jacket, smoking a pack a day but it changes you. It's your choice if it's good or bad.  

And lastly TIME, I've heard half of the time of the relationship, I've heard a year I'v heard almost every time length possible. The TRUTH is? There is not time, it happens one day when you pass by their house and you forget they live there or you stop flipping it off as you drive off...

It happens when they get engaged and it's a month before the wedding and you are beginning to fall in love again that when you give them the last thing you have of theirs, you attach a note signed with your old nicknames and you do it from the purest love, wishing them luck and happiness.

It never just disappears, you remember moments with things that you shared. One day you wake up and you look forward to a new face and a new adventure with someone else who has stolen your heart. Don't worry about anything except loving yourself again and taking care of that poor heart that's taken a beating. Get back out there and try to be sexy, even when you're like me and it's just absolutely painful to watch me try...

Be fearless, be you, fall in love and don't worry things will come.

Love Always,

Oh and like always a video!!!

Omg! It's been forever since I've posted, but I promise I was super busy. I've been absolutely everywhere, and just crazy with my life. Update, my diet has been slowly changing... I've started eating more veggies and fruits. In fact I've been mixing them up and making salads with orange and lemon juice dressing. It's way more healthier than ranch and taste delicious! Fruits are a little hard to get in variety during the winter in the deserts of Utah but I'm managing and I've been eating veggies a galore! I've recently gotten into beets, and spinach has been my go to for the foundation of my salads! 1 Cup of spinach = 7 calories So you know eat up! Although it's been exciting and a refinement of my palette, it's also been super difficult! I don't have a cheat days because I don't want to create boundaries to how I eat I want it to be natural and not forced for clean eating. So what I try to do is eat as healthy as possible, weekends are tough and when I do splurge and I can't help but feel guilty. 3 Slices of Pizza from Papa John's, fries from McDonalds, Spaghetti and Garlic Loaf... The struggle is real, First world problems. Sad.

Working out has been pretty good, I'm on my fourth week and some days are better than others. I've come to realize that I need A LOT of structure in my life.  Otherwise I do start slacking, my measurements are in a week and I'm super nervous to see if there's been any progress. It's been tough but I think over all I've been doing okay...

My spirituality... That needs work, I'm okay on it, but I'm not okay with that. I want better or best, I think you should do everything with passion or not at all. Other wise life is pointless and we're squishy bags of air, that roll around on a planet that means nothing. I've started going to institute and plan on going again to the temple.

Anyways I've been posting alot of Outfit Of The Day on Instagram and plan on hopefully maybe doing some makeup tutorials!

Get ready world here I come!!!

Until the makeup blog here's another episode of my Vlog! I promise I'll work on making them better!

It's been crazy busy this week I've been so exhausted every day! So this week I went to the gym er'day, just kidding I missed Sunday and Monday but I stuck it out this week! I also started to eat healthy, and I've lost weight again? Eating fruits and veggies, drinking plenty of water, ya know the basics! My weight fluctuates so much I honestly don't know, but I'm also toning quiet a bit. My stomach is is sculpting and so are my legs, the other day I wore shorts and I had a exciting "well, hello!" to my new leg muscles.

On a spiritual note, I finally went back to the temple! Within it's walls I was able to ask the questions that I so desperately needed answered in order to find the peace I needed. I've started reading my scriptures again and it's just absolutely awesome! I think I'm on a steady road back to where I was if not better. I'm really happy I can't say entirely how I feel, but I want to say that life could not be better.

So many things for next week as well! I go to institute and my new work schedule starts, my gym schedule is set as well! everything is so exciting, new year is off to a great start although the first week has seemed like the longest! Any one else?  I've started building a new closet, I finally am getting that denim shirt I've wanted! And I got so tights I wanted, I also got a military jacket and more leggings.

There are a few things I've been dismissing, there are few people that are concerned with my dating life and I swear I'm really close to ripping them a new one. I'm 21 and this is the year I embark on all my adventures, if someone comes along who is absolutely incredible and wants to join me then LET IT BE. Other than that, I'm enjoying that single life!

OOOOHHHH! By the way! Guess what I did!!! I talked to Shawn, I went up to him in the gym and congratulated him on his engagement. He seemed very taken back, maybe that's just what I got... Anyways it was great and hopefully the end of that. It was like giving a crappy story a good ending.

I think thats it for today ya'll but I will be uploading a Vlog and my Gnome adventures on my tumblr! Check them out on http://theoddpotato93.tumblr.com

As always lots of love and leaving you with this! Here's the song, It's been making me crazy!!!

Okay 2015! Post!!! Are we ready for this year!!! SO here are a few of the things I want to do this year!

I want to work on my fashion sense this year,  so what I'm doing is making a list of must haves for my closet. These items and colors are things I feel like you can probably alternate and make some really awesome outfits!

Clothing: Leather Leopard Print Jean Jacket Denim Shirt Little Black Dress White Button Down Shirt Blazer Butt Jeans Plaid Shirt Over Size Sweater Printed Pants Cat Sweater Favorite Band Tee Frozen Tee-Shirt

Colors: Olive Green Mustard Yellow Blush Pink Maroon

Great Pair of Pumps Ankle Booties

Diamond Studs Statement Jewelry

Another thing I want to do is start eating healthy and getting exercise. So the way I'm starting is making sure I eat one veggie and one fruit each day for a month! That is the goal! After a while I will move on to more. I will as well be doing a class of turbo kick a week and three days of work out a week each one hour long! :) I want to get lean and mean! My goal is to get into BOXING shape and maybe try it out this upcoming year.

My skin and hair will be very important so I will keep them in top shape this year as well. My hair growth will be recorded I'm not sure where... Anyways I will also be playing guitar a lot more and drawing. I will be exploring social medias and trying out new talents so I'm really excited and pumped, I know it's super lame but my 2015 starts actually tomorrow, 1/4/15 I will commence all my fun plans and stuff I'm way pumped!

Here below I'm linking my video log (VLOG) of a little more about my 2015 plans and other junk you may not care about! Thanks for all the support!

Also as of an hour ago I am on Tumblr! 

Christmas was fantastic, I got to spend time with my family and loved ones. It was really great to connect with them and to hug them and let them know I love them. That's my life. A lot of people seem to miss that concept, but I love my family above anything else. It's all I've ever known, and some people think that because I've adopted a new faith that I'm going to ditch them. My family is coming with me, I know that god has a plan where what my heart really desires with faithful following will be mine forever. And the relationship and understanding of what he has in store for me is my own and no one else's concern or job to critique. I'm not looking for other's opinion on that, I'm a girl who loves seeking advice on different matters but where I stand with God is my own judgement  and His not yours. I was truly blessed this Christmas with the time to spend with all those who I love.

I love my family. :)

Okay so I have a 2015 post coming up and I know it'll be up by the end of this year or early next year, I could just post it all up now but it would drive me crazy because I still got to wrap this year up! How will I do that well by tying up some loose ends, so here it goes.

All though it might seem petty and immature and dumb, I've blocked both of you. You might not read this but for those of you who do, I'm talking about my exes. I had two guys who BROKE my heart this year, and while I'm still a little hurt, I plan on leaving that and them in 2014. I blocked them on Facebook and I plan on never speaking to them again, if I bump into them I will be a mature person and say hello but other than that.... Don't expect much else, I have nothing nice or mean to say to them. I don't hate them, but I also don't plan on wasting a single breath on someone who hurt me. If they ever need help from me, I'll be there in a heart beat because that's who I am. In my life though, they don't get to be a part of that anymore. You lost that privilege whether it was by negligence, or "life" I don't care. Call me crazy, stupid, immature but I'm not going to let you keep hurting me just because you want to keep being friends or you're sorry. And if you don't care? Good.

I don't hate them, but I'm also not going to pretend to be there biggest fan. It's over I get it, they might not get what that means to me. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm leaving and it's done. NO second chances, once you screw up that's it.

I think that's it, 2014 has been good! I learned a lot, let go of a lot, gained a lot, and cried my little eyes out, but over all I'm so thankful that in the back of my mind I've been talking to my maker and clearing a few things up. I'm glad for all the blessings and trials I've experienced and like always 2015! I'm still kicking and screaming like a crazy person from 2014 but I'm ready! Bring it! ;)

My maybe last song of the year! This Blog has been very therapeutic and I love it!! Thanks everyone who reads this! You are my PEEPS!