Fine. Make me your villain.

Academic comeback aur shaadi ki umar ki race me kahi shaadi ki umar peeche na pad jaye

i don’t want to watch porn, i wanna hear you moan

The damage has been done (exposed myself as a lover girl instead of being mysterious and non-chalant)

referring to a research paper published in the year 1964 for my research got me feeling like a priestess or a young protagonist on a quest wearing a heavy cloak over her shoulders as she refers to an ancient scroll for prophecies, clues or anything that can help her in her most desperate hour, written in a nearly-undecipherable script in the light of a lamp. do with that what you will.

The feminine urge to absolutely melt into a mans arms just to be able to turn your brain off and not be scared or anxious for just a few seconds.

what's wrong babe you've barely touched your potential even though all your elementary teachers really liked you and said you were gifted and that you were going to do great things

"She is a paradox. She is faithful yet detached. She is committed and yet relaxed. She loves everyone and yet no one. She is sociable but also a loner. She is gentle and yet tough. She is passionate but can also be platonic. In short, she is prediatable in her unpredicatbility."

liam. oh liam. god. he was the one i worried so much about ever since the band. like, it used to be zayn but when zayn left and grew i thought "ok, he's going to be ok" because you could see after a while that the band was not good for zayn. you could see it. but liam, god. he carried so much weight, all the time. from the band all the way to the present, he was the guy who was supposed to be put together. he was "daddy direction" he was. yeah. he was that guy. and i know it weighed on him. i KNOW it did. the drinking and the fucking spiraling he went through after the band, it was all connected. and i'm not. defending his choices, i'm not. but i'm grieving him and i'm aching for him, and. i just wanted him to be okay. i really really thought that he would be okay. and he's not. and i'm. fucking heartbroken about it.