Why am I so injuredddd

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1. Ieyasu is built with mostly lean muscle, his shoulders, back and arms being his strongest points. He is fairly agile and swift, with a very aggressive approach to combat. Aggression makes him prone to anger in fights, which can leave him vulnerable to provocation and force him to make irrational decisions in the heat of the moment. His clothes are typically in whites, light grays, reds and black accents with lots of layers. Always covers all but his face. 2. En face & profile; typically has a deadpan stare, and is not often seen smiling. Has two earlobe piercings. Hair is solid black and straight. Either slicked back or with a middle-part. Reaches down to the small of his back. 3. Does embroidery as a pastime, typically including motifs that he believes would offer him protection when worn. 4. Scenes from Ieyasu's life; top - Ieyasu is devoured by the dragon; bottom - a vision of the burning of the Imperial Palace. 5. Two trusted weapons; a plain sabre with a star-shaped cross-guard, and on the bottom, the blade that Ieyasu used to take his own life, later gifted to Aun Ghoul after his resurrection as a promise to stay alive. 6. Ieyasu's bloodstone medallion, shining red when facing the Great Star. Inherited from his father upon his death, and used as proof of his identity. 7. Top iris - a deep dark green, in his life prior to resurrection; bottom iris - after his resurrection, his eyes feature a bloodred aura. 8. Ieyasu's old body, unearthed in his second life to be moved to his home on the Highlands in hopes of alleviating nightmares of being buried underground. His soul still remembers his old corporeal form, and sometimes makes him dream from its dead eyes. Typically, Aun Ghoul will tend to the shrine, for Ieyasu can hardly look at his old self.

Backstory Ieyasu's backstory is heavily tied to Aun Ghoul.

Their story takes place in the northern hemisphere of Ymsath, below the Isean Mountains where the Western Highlands are located, a region of Isea that are home to both Aun Ghoul and Ieyasu. Isea and its neighboring New Auga to the East have been at odds for decades, the Empire of the New Augean Dawn having its eyes fixed on conquering Isea and taking it under its rule, while also leading a war effort to reclaim lands further Northeast. Isea, having itself split from imperial influence, desires to remain independent. Navigation through this conflict further amplifies when Isea receives reports of a brewing invasion coming from its North, through the only land passage into Isea and by extension, New Auga. In their respective timelines, both Aun Ghoul and Ieyasu have held positions of power in the ruling fabric of Isea. Ieyasu is, in his first life, the last bearer of the draconic soul-fragment of the god Azak-Har. This inherited soul bound to his bloodline ties him to Aun Ghoul, its first bearer, yet unlike Aun Ghoul, nobody of Ieyasu's blood was able to take shape of the dragon. This bond enables both men to receive visions of each other's life through their dreams, untethered by time. Ieyasu's first lifetime is marked by the loss of his family and home in a failed uprising against imperial rule. After this, Ieyasu is taken captive by Jin, the Lord of the Riverlands, an ally of the Augean emperor and the past lover of Ieyasu's father. Up to that point, Jin had been a second father figure to Ieyasu, now forever sullied. All his efforts are fixed on achieveing vengeance while struggling with his own grief, the weight of the dragon's soul now solely resting on him as he tries to (and fails to) find stable footing while being groomed to become a mere instrument of his captor's will. Under Jin's regime, when nothing remains to Ieyasu that he recognizes as himself, the only thing that anchors him is the growl of the dragon between his ears, and its whispers in his dreams. Of his attempts to enact his revenge one of the most significant was the murder of the reigning emperor and the subsequent burning of the imperial palace, the act that marks him for death. He emerges from hiding to attempt to kill Jin some years later, but fails and commits suicide. He is reborn roughly a decade afterwards, through the possession and murder of Jin's son, fueled by the draconic soul's power. Alive again, emerged from the corpse of his son, Ieyasu kills Jin, and assumes power. As the word spread of Ieyasu's unlikely resurrection and ascension as Riverlord, Aun Ghoul, reborn anew as well seeks him out, to reclaim the dragon's soul. Ieyasu believes Aun Ghoul plans to kill him in order for this to be possible, but his intentions are still unclear. As the Augean empire retaliates not long afterwards, Ieyasu's city falls and he is taken prisoner, but Aun Ghoul manages to escape in the chaos. Imprisoned, Ieyasu is grievously wounded, and as he nears death, the draconic soul abandons him and flees to Aun Ghoul, who instinctively assumes its shape. Driven solely by the dragon's instinct, he flies to the imperial city, and as a dragon he devours Ieyasu and takes him deep into the Isean Mountains, where he regurgitates his dying body. So he may live, Aun Ghoul binds the dragon's soul back to him, Ieyasu's soul being way too weak for autonomous function when torn from the dragon's life essence supporting it, especially after nearly dying now, and having died previously.  As Aun Ghoul is the only one who can assume the dragon's form to tend to its needs, yet Ieyasu needs the soul with him to stay alive, their lives are now eclipsed by trying to find balance amongst themselves, completely dependent on each other, the dragon constantly migrating between them.

Generally, Aun Ghoul will need to assume its form every other month, and will stay in it for a month or two. This period rarely lasts longer, unless Aun Ghoul is for whatever reason unable to revert. Ieyasu's livelihood greatly depends on the dragon being with him, hence why Aun Ghoul must by all means necessary stick to schedule so neither Ieyasu nor the dragon suffer too much. In practice, initiating a transformation rarely comes at Aun's own will. The dragon's own instincts persist within Aun Ghoul's mind, and if it receives a signal strong enough from outside stimuli to act, Aun Ghoul will take its form. Over the years, Aun has had to learn to shield himself from the dragon's impulses, as a premature transformation could potentially kill Ieyasu if he has not yet healed from the last separation from the dragon's soul.

Outwardly, Ieyasu is very reserved and calculated. He clings to a rigid routine that remains from his time under Jin's control. He hates himself for it, yet realizes it is usually the only way he can navigate relations with others and himself. His phrases come off as very formulaic and rehearsed. He is poor at holding a casual conversation. If he has no time to properly phrase a response, he can be overtly blunt and come off as rude. He's unlikely to lie. Does not trust others enough to let them into his inner world, but operates under the idea of people having enough honor and dignity that they'll keep their promises to him, as he would to them. As such, he weighs every option carefully before making a promise, as he'll intend to keep it. As much as he is a poor and often a boring conversationalist, he is a decent listener. What he lacks in words, he'll usually make up in some sort of service. Takes a very long time to warm up to other people, struggles greatly with intimacy, sexuality and physical touch. Suffers from self-destructive urges and experiences a need for isolation from others(to his detriment), though these urges subside later in life when he develops healthier coping mechanisms and has a home of his own, but are severe in his youth.