Jax is a terrible transfem representation. There, I said it. Just to be clear, if you relate to Jax and find joy or comfort in her story, more power to you 👍 I don't want to take that feeling away from you. Now...
Let's address the elephant in the room first. Femininity doesn't equal womanhood. A bow, a cute "girly" room, a "feminine" color scheme (purple and pinkish-red), liking dresses and wearing an eyeliner (god I hate the maid dress sm but I'll talk abt that later, but I've just noticed how it has a heart-shaped pattern on the chest area so... heart = girl?) and the final scene between Jax and Pomni having a pink hue to it are just not it, Goose.
Being a woman has to do with how you feel on the inside, not how feminine you are. I hate that Jax is flattened into either this "girly cutie pie" or a hottie by the fanbase now that we know she's trans, when she's a frickin mess of a character, full of self-blame and self-hatred that doesn't only have to do with her gender identity
I don't think it's illogical to say Jax had mommy and daddy issues even before she discovered her gender identity. When it comes to how Jax feels about Kaufmo and Ribbit's abstraction... well, I'd rather have her feel immense guilt because she genuinely cared for them both despite everything (I want Jax to be more than her transness and selfishness!), than for THIS to be her train of thought: "My friends are dead because I'm a girl! I couldn't accept it then, and I can't accept it now! It was all my fault because I'M A GIRL! Me being a girl is not only the main thing "wrong" with me, but also the root cause of all my problems!"
Transition wouldn't have fixed Jax because what she really needed to get better were self-acceptance, self-forgiveness and self-love. That's why I want to put the whole cast in Jax's mind in my rewrite. She needed them all to become whole, even briefly, before death
I want Jax to be a complex, fucked up woman with real depth and a capacity for change that she never took, not a hypersexualized, hyperfeminine trans girl. A woman is a woman regardless of her appearance, voice or interests because she knows deep down she is one! Jax's problems were deep and internal, yeah, but imo, her main issue was her belief that every part of her (including her mistakes) was wrong and unloveable. Jax spent the entire show fragmented instead of whole, meanwhile the others managed to overcome their issues. That's why I think it would be a good idea to have Pomni, Ragatha, Gangle, Zooble and Kinger all try to help Jax one last time so she can finally accept and forgive herself
And as we can see from Goose's confirmation post, Jax would have still kept thinking inappropriate things had she transitioned i dont think it's even possible to have your avatar permanently altered and your voice changed in the circus but ok ("I think my 2 friends who I've mistreated in canon are destined to fuck each others' brains out"). Not to mention her design is hyperfeminine and doesn't fit TADC's vibe. That's not Jax. She looks like Octavia from Helluva Boss
The fact that Glitch is profiting off of a trans character being deeply uncomfortable with wearing a sexualized, hyper-feminine maid dress out in public (that was only meant to humiliate them and be the creator's kink) to the point they seemed like they were close to abstracting is uh... certainly a choice. And not a good one. If Jax was just an average Joe with toxic masculinity, I still wouldn't like it, but Jax being a trans woman makes this whole thing even worse
Why do these two scenes have to parallel???
When I first watched Episode 7, I didn't even notice the trans flag colors in Jax's eyes, and when I eventually did, I just assumed it was an Easter Egg that Gooseworx put in there because she's trans
The same goes for the "chicken fetus in an egg" line. I genuinely thought Goose used that specific wording not because Jax himself was trans but because Goose thought to herself: "Yeah, I wanna showcase that Jax is more than a jerk and the funny guy, but I'll use this trans term because I'm trans myself and this is gonna be a fun Easter Egg haha"
I mean, if feeling like a girl was apparently always the biggest aspect of Jax's character, why be so vague about it? Most people aren't familiar with "the egg" referring to closeted trans people or trans people in denial! It feels like Goose just wrote this show for herself and didn't stop to think that hey, maybe my audience won't pick up on this stuff unless I'm more explicit about it, especially since there are a lot of kids in the TADC fandom
And of course, there's Jax's head being shaped like an egg and us only seeing the "yolk" underneath in ep 8
Goose, you've gotta get it into your head that many people are unfamiliar with what any of this stuff even means. That includes boymoding
No, Jax isn't fucking lovely, she's a terrible, selfish and cowardly person, and the audience shouldn't be gaslit that she was ever lovely despite her trauma. Not to mention Jax literally called herself a terrible person like a few lines before that. And if the montage was meant to say "Jax could have been lovely if only she had gotten to live openly as a woman," uh... nope. Jax needed to sort so many internal things out first. Transition doesn't magically fix things
"Isn't She Lovely?" is a song that a Black man sang to his Black daughter when she was born. Using the cover of a non-black man and putting it in the context of a "rebirth as a woman" (which in canon changes nothing abt Jax or Leeroy, neither are explicitly revealed to be trans after it) scene doesn't sit right with me, especially since the finale aired on Juneteenth and Gooseworx is racist, just like some of the VA's. I will never forget the "NEGA" situation where Michael and Ashley laughed for a long ass time because someone posted a pic of a black shirt during a livestream with the word "NEGA" written on it in white letters
I hate that we never get to hear Jax talk about what she actually likes and dislikes. Does she genuinely love guns (according to ep 6) and safaris (according to ep 5)? If fans REALLY wanna remember Jax fondly, why does it have to be JUST as "the trans girl"? Why don't we learn a single thing about Jax aside from her being trans, which was confirmed on Bluesky??? This girl never tells us anything about her interests or... anything, really. We just get a tone-deaf TikTok montage and KABOOM! she's gone. Reduced to atoms. Okay, Goose. Go off.