TheLoudlyHappy

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1,643 days without touching another human being.

And then Simon showed up.…yeah, this is going to be complicated. 🫠

First - Next

Close ups \/

At which point they will find an ovarian cyst, but they now get whatever fucked up satisfaction they derive out of proving you wrong, because you didn't believe it could a cyst at all, but guess what? They did find a cyst! It's such a good thing you didn't listen to your intuition and came to them to verify your lay diagnosis from that third party! Bonus? Doctor doesn't have to feel like they look stupid in front of a patient, which is really what all this is about. Not your health, why would you think your medical diagnosis is about your health? It's obviously about a doctor's potential ego.

And apparently this works. Apparently you just need to be able to always play 4D chess with your medical professionals in order to find an avenue of advocating for yourself and getting you medical needs met. Isn't that great?

If you insist on a doctor writing in your official documentation that youve asked for investigations of [suspected ailment] and that they are declining those investigations, if it later turns out that you DO indeed have [ailment] then the doc that refused to investigate will be in some decently hot water. Because of this, they wont write their refusal in your file. They will simply order the investigations instead.

Grace may not be a medical doctor but he does view Simon like a patient at first, when he is very actively reliant on grace in the beginning. Grace knowing he’s incredibly vulnerable and putting his own feeling about another human being around aside for the purpose of caring for Simon.

Then as Simon gets better. And the stress of what that means FINNALLY catches up with grace. And Simon finnaly trusts him just enough. Grace experiences a flood of emotions. He’s desperate for human contact. And he’s so so guilty because obviously this is unethical and there’s no obligation for Simon to give him anything. And he’s just spent so so long convincing Simon thats he is not in his debt and no he’s not getting sent back to the COI if he makes a mistake and no nothing he is doing for him is conditional. Especially not on something as complex as them being close.

But that doesn’t stop just how badly he needs it.

And at a certain point this suppression of all of graces needs for resoprosity and connection, mixed with all the abandonment issues and years of isolation, touch starvation and trauma all boil over and there’s a role reversal. Simon all of a sudden takes care of grace with every bit of gentleness that grace showed him. Not out of fear but out of care.

I think Grace might unravel entirely.

But after that they become much more functional and eventually are in somthing like a very affectionate qpr.

Cultural exchange between buddies

them <3

a little close up of their mate marks: