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        lifting   her   hand   up   to   her   face,   the   brunette   attempted   to   massage   the   stinging   pain   from   her   cheek,   which   was   now   turning   red   with   the   other   females   handprint   making   itself   visible.     “  okay..   i-i   probably   deserved   that.   ”     she   admits,   biting   down   slightly   on   her   lesser   lip   prior   to   looking   back   up   at   the   female.   “   what   exactly   did   i   do   ?   ”

          "   you   don't   understand   ?   you    SMASHED    my   phone,   fallon   !   and   for   what   ?   because   apparently   i   broke   your   heart   ?   what   the   FUCK.   "   pure   irritation   is   in   the   her   tone   as   her   hands   fumble   with   her   smashed   phone,   shaking   her   head   in   disbelief.     "   i'm   pretty   sure   that   it's   still   you.   "

          it   wasn't   long   after   she   woke   up   that   the   throbbing   pain   in   her   head   became   evident.   resting   her   hand   on   her   head,   she   kept   her   eyes   close   momentarily.   not   wanting   to   make   eye   contact   with   any   sort   of   light   seeing   as   her   head   already   felt   like   it   was   prepared   to   explode.   blindly   reaching   out   she   took   the   bottle   from   the   other   female,   opening   her   eyes   just   slightly   to   see   what   she   was   handing   her.   eyeing   the   bottle   of   coconut   water,   she   stayed   squinting,   but   looked   up   to   the   other   female,   holding   her   hand   up   to   block   the   light   from   her   eyes   while   she   does   so.      "   usually   ?   no.   but,   usually   waking   up   on   couches   that   aren't   mine   isn't   something   i   usually   do   either   so   i   guess   i’m   full   of   surprises.   "     she   thanks   the   female   as   she   sits   up   straight,   crossing   her   legs   as   she   extends   them   out   in   front   of   her.     "   did   --   did   i   sleep   with   my   shoes   on   ?   "     given   how   confused   she   is,   it's   a   genuine   question.

          !!  so despite the fact that it’s 10:00 am and i’m running on no sleep, have this shitty graphic in honor of me reaching over 100 followers   ( i know,  i’m confused too. )           i’ve had this blog for a couple of months now ? maybe 3 ? and this is the LONGEST i’ve ever had a multimuse blog without abandoning it and that’s lowkey an accomplishment for me. idk how u guys put up with me and my shitstorm of characters but thanks for that !!                        me: now here’s the part where i list a bunch of blogs i love.                        also me: *tags every follower i have*      OK SERIOUSLY A FEW PEOPLE I LOVE UP CLOSE ;  @outniced, @chocolxtes, @brokenmvses, @crushedpctals, @diorgalore​ ! A FEW PEOPLE I LOVE FROM FAR AWAY ; @ofserein, @avalxns, @postuxre, @iintcrludes, @jctalone, @lipstiicks, @exxposcd, @tcmpted, @arnbrosia, @revelrys, @thcrns, @radiicn !

      “    please   don’t   go.   “      the   desperation   tastes   like   poison   on   her   tongue.   the   fact   that   her   feelings   were   so   far   out   of   her   control   made   her   feel   weak.   she   hates   it.   almost   as   much   as   she   hates   how   much   she   cares   for   the   girl.   she   hasn’t   cared   for   anyone   this   way   since   costia.   she   s   w   o   r   e   she   wouldn’t   let   herself   get   so   deeply   involved   with   someone   again,   but   here   she   is.

          "   but   am   i   ?   like,   am   i    really    ?   don't   you   ever   think   about   how   there's   most   definitely   someone   else   more   deserving   of   your   time   ?   "

          cue   a   nervous   laugh,   she   nods   her   head.     "   yeah,   i   think   you're   right..   "     she   admits.   mentally   scolding   her   family   for   bringing   so   much   stuff   for   a   one,   maybe   two   week   vacation.   ashton   subconsciously   left   her   hands   rested   comfortably   on   her   brothers   girlfriends   hips.   not   thinking   anything   of   it,   she   kept   them   there.   with   a   slight   adjustment   of   her   hips,   ashton   found   a   position   she   deemed   somewhat   comfortable   and   sighed   with   relief.   that   was,   until   her   mother,   who   isn't   the   skillful   driver   she   tries   to   convince   everyone   that   she   is,   drove   directly   over   a   pothole   in   the   road.     "   jesus   christ,   mom.   "     she   mutters   in   a   tone   her   mother   couldn't   possible   hear.   with   a   friendly   smile   on   her   face,   ashton   shakes   her   head   as   she   rubs   maria's   sides   with   her   hands   as   an   act   of   comfort.     "   it's   not   your   fault   your   boyfriends   an   asshole.   "     she   retaliates,   referring   to   how   he   left   his   girlfriend   to   sit   in   the   cluttered   back   seat   while   he's   nice   and   cozy   up   front.   ashton   attempted   to   keep   her   hips   as   distant   from   maria's   as   possible,   not   wanting   the   erection   she   had   (   at   the    WORST    possible   time   )   to   make   things   even   more   uncomfortable.     "   if   there's   anything   i   can   do   so   you're   more   comfortable   just   let   me   know.   "     she   tells   her   in   an   assuring   tone,   wanting   maria   to   be   comfortable   just   as   bad   as   she   herself   wanted   to   be.  

               shton   was   somewhat   relieved   by   the   fact   that   the   other   female   didn't   seem   to   make   a   big   deal   out   of   her   anatomy.   but   yet   she   couldn't   help   herself   but   feel   guilty.   kali   wasn't   her   girlfriend   to   be   thinking   sexually   about,   let   alone   let   herself   possible   act   on   the   thoughts   she   couldn't   refrain   herself   from   having.   while   watching   the   other,   chills   ran   through   her   body   due   to   the   fact   that   the   females   mouth   was   just   that   close   to   her   erection.   as   much   as   she   so   desperately   wanted   to   let   kali   continue   with   wherever   she   was   planning   on   going   with   this,   she   knew   she   would've   felt   guilty   if   she   didn't   at   least   attempt   to   do   the   right   thing   in   alll   of   this.      "   you   uh,   you..   do   realize   your   boyfriends   two   seats   in front   of   us,   don't   you   ?   "      she   questions   as   she   rests   her   hand   on   the   other   females   back,   tilting   her   head   slightly.     "   i   don't   think   he'd   be   too   happy   about   this.   "     even   though   ashtons   telling   herself   that   maybe   he   shouldn't   have   rushed   for   the   front   seat   like   an   asshole.   now   she's   just   subtlety   hoping   that   kali   wouldn't   be   as   modest   as   she's   being   and   continue.  

          as   maria   spoke,   ashton   lifted   her   head,   her   eyes   previously   having   been   focused   on   the   girls   hips   in   her   lap.   nodding   her   head   just   a   little,   she   hoped   that   she   didn't   seem   too   off.   it's   just   her   luck   that   this   would   happen   to   her.   especially   when   there's   no   way   for   her   to   get   out   of   it   seeing   as   they’d   be   in   the   car   for   the   next   several   hours.     "   yeah.   i-i'm   good.   are   you   ?   "     she   questions   back,   knowing   the   stutter   in   her   words   probably   just   gave   her   away.   mentally   scolding   herself,   she   rested   her   hands   on   the   girls   small   frame,   looking   up   at   her.     "   i   can   try   and   move     if   you   want   ?   "     she   offers,   but   before   the   other   female   could   even   respond   she's   already   attempting   to   move   as   much   as   she   can.   given   what   little   room   they   have   in   the   way   back,   she   soon   realized   how   useless   attempting   to   move   was   and   she   made   a   mental   note   to   smack   her   brother   in   the   head   as   soon   as   they   arrived   at   their   destination   for   not   taking   the   back   seat   instead.      “   i’m   sorry,   i   tried.   “     and   she   did   try   to   make   it   more   comfortable   for   her.   but   it   wasn’t   her   fault   her   family   brought   so   much   extra   luggage.   ashton   herself   only   had   one   bag.  

          "   these   days   i   don't   know   how   to   talk   to   you.   i   don't   know   how   to   be   there   when   you   need   me.   "

          "   i   haven’t   seen   you   smile   this   whole   time.   it   bums   me   out,   it   makes   me   wonder   why   i   can't   do   right.   "  

               the    last    time    he    seen    the    female,    the    two   had    gotten    into    an    argument    over    something    so    small    he’s    already    forgotten    what    it    was.    he    was    never    good    at    apologies,    saying    them    or    writing    them.    so    he    apologized    in    the    only    way    he   knew    how.    he’s    out-front    of    the    girls    apartment,    drying    off    her    car    with    a    rag    as    he    sees   her    coming    out    of    her    home.    tossing    the    rag   over    his    shoulder    he    made    his    way    over    to   her.      “    your    cars    all    cleaned.    ”      he    begins.      “    inside    and    out.    i    washed,    dried,    and    waxed    it.    ”      this    is    how    he    gives    apologies,    it’s    his    way   of    saying,      “    i’m    sorry.    ”  

            family   road   trips   weren’t   exactly something   ashton   enjoyed,   but   now   it   was   already   too   late.   her,   her   mom   and   her   brother   were   heading   down   to   florida   to   visit   their   other  mother   who   had   been   traveling   for   business   and   her   brother   decided   to   bring   his   girlfriend   of   some   time   along   for   the   vacation.   why   he   didn’t   choose   to   sit   in   the   back   seat   with   his   OWN   girlfriend   and   let   ashton   claim   the   front   seat   was   beyond   her.   but   in   a   way,   the   brunette   wasn’t   complaining.   seeing   as   she’s   sitting   in   the   far   back   seat,   it   was   nearly   impossible   for   her   to   participate   in   her   mothers   road   trip   games   and   she   was   just   fine   with   that.   all   was   going   well   until   her   brothers   girlfriend   went   from   being   perched   on   her   leg   to   fully   sitting   in   her   lap.   she   typically   wouldn’t   have   minded,   seeing   as   she   assume   anyways   that   her   previous   position   wasn’t   all   that   comfortable   anyhow,   but   now,   she’s   developing   an   embarrassing   hard   on   and   there’s   no   possible   way   for   her   to   hide   it   because   as   of   right   now,   her   lap   is   the   only   available   seat   for   the   other   female.   she’s   just   going   to   pray   that   the   female   occupying   her   lap   somehow   wouldn’t   notice.  

         “   did   he   dump   you   ?   yes.   do   you   still  need   to   buy   him   an   anniversary   gift   ?   absolutely   not.   see,   it   all   works   out.   i mean…   you’re   still   single   but   now   you’re   single   and   you   just   saved   some   money.  ”