What's Your Reality

On the other side of the camera.  This is just a test shot from my last modeling gig done by AG Photography Studios.  Literally, this was just a test shot to check the lighting and settings and I’m so going to use it for my updated head shot.

Model: Up and coming recording artist NiLa78

Scenic: North Burial Ground; Providence, RI 2019

So a friend really liked one of my pictures and said she had the perfect frame for it.  So I told her I'd print out a copy for her as a late birthday gift after cropping to fit the frame and diddling with some edits also and see which she liked better.  Which one would you pick?  Let's see how many people went with her choice =D

When you and your long time friend have a calm discussion about a disagreement on the use of a particular word and you come to an agreement and the topic is calmly brought to a close . . . and then an hour later person C, who does not know you, comes in and condescends to you to try to reignite a fire from embers that barely sparked to begin with--my knee jerk reaction is to look at person C and say, “Why don't I hold this dead horse in place so you can get a better grip on that absurdly large bludgeon.” 

#sorrynotsorry 

Smh. People like that love to fuel hate when there was no hate to begin with.  Have fun aloft your high horse, which I did mention was dead right?

Sitting on the toilet after not being able to go in I don't know how long imagining discussing this with the doctor:

"When's the last time you went?"

"Not everyone pays attention to shit like that."

*immediately commended self for coming up with one of the most literal statements ever.

A spell for the constantly (willfully) abused empath:

From this moment forward,

I will never bend backwards

for one who will not bend forward

to catch me.

We dance the dance together,

or not at all.

As I will it,

I've been told I share too much.To this I have honestly stated: most people would be deeply shocked if they realized how much I actually DON'T say.

Surprise!

I only share about 5% of what goes through my head any given day and what I find pertinent to that day between my experiences and those around me.  Yes, even on my "heavy flow" days.  Like today.It's all just surface me, including what most people consider intensely deep.  Just the tip of the iceberg of what is known as The Carlos Brum.

The truth is, my depths are so deep, I haven't even gotten to the bottom of me yet.

When I go quiet for days or months or years, it's because I dove deeper than before and when I still didn't touch bottom I got lost in the vortex of my neverending mind and couldn't find my way back.