Mx. Jester

Idk what kinda crack they put into FreeMan & C angst but oooh its given me a lot of drawing motivation today...

Non-lyrics vers. under the cut

Kittle: You-! What the hell were you guys THINKING!? Trying to use Swap and- and B here and Player and- fuck, using DOC like that! Look, I'm a piece of shit. My life doesn't matter all that much. But you guys punished PLAYER for MY sins?! Jesus, you KIDNAPPED a GRIEVING MAN and made a PROMISE to her that you ABSOLUTELY couldn't fucking keep!! What the hell were you THINKING?!

Admin C: I... I just...

Admin F: ...

Admin C: We... It gave us the idea-! We thought maybe, if we could find others like Doc, people who needed help... If we could grab our Gordon, and spend enough time with him, showing him people talking about their lives, indirectly... If we- if we could get through to him deep enough... Keep him away from my dad for long enough... We could... He could...

Admin F: ...It wasn't just that.

Admin F: The Mad Science Team, before their... unfortunate passing... was studying something.

Admin F: ...Well- There was... one world. One world with traces of G-Man's presence in it... as if he had... been recently.

Admin F: ...We pulled up near it, and saw...

Admin P: ...Doc.

Admin C: When we stepped out of Benrey's cave in Xen... we... we stepped into...

Admin C: His void...

Admin C: And.. before I could stop him, he...

Admin C: He really... brought all of us together.

Admin C: ...Everyone in the Black Mesa incident was... presumed dead. We- we survived, but... the military tried to wipe us out.

Admin C: If... if one of us disappeared...

Admin C: ...He even got through to Benrey.

Admin C: He was... my everything.

Admin C: He- we- when we went through all that, we-

Admin C: We were... a couple.

Admin C: We... were a couple.

Admin F: ...Hell, he even got through to an old grouch like me.

Admin F: You don't make many friends, being a test tube baby. But that son of a bitch...

Admin P: He was... wonderful.

[Admin P fidgets, rolling up his sleeves to look at his arms, mechanical seams clearly present.]

Admin P: During our time exploring Black Mesa, I learned that... everything I thought my life was, wasn't real. I was... a machine. A sentient robot created by the Cybernetics Department. I tried to look into my past... Tried to see the things I remembered... but there was nothing there.

Admin P: I took my anger out on Gordon. He was real, he couldn't possibly understand...!

Admin C: That was... the first day I got hired at Black Mesa.

Admin C: Bubby and- and Dr. Coomer helped me out, gettin' me a job there...

Admin C: ...One day, everything changed... A newbie was hired to help with the Xen tests... A physicist...

[G-Man sneers from underneath his umbrella.]

G-Man: You... You... are my curse. You are the ball and chain preventing me... from freedom.

G-Man: I have delayed it each time you have asked, Thomas. But the day must come where you stand up and take your place.

Tommy: No! N-no! I didn't ask for this! I didn't ask to be made! I didn't ASK you to MAKE ME! I don't... I don't want to go do your horrible job! I want to live my life! I want to grow old with my friends! I... I...

G-Man: Thomas. If you won't...