2024 Adieu
At first, I thought this was an annual thing, and while I attempt to do it annually this does not necessarily mean it actually gets done by the new year or that year's reflection gets posted. So here goes 2024 laments...
2024 was a year of ups and downs, as is any year. Was it a particularly good year? I don't know... as I've gotten older I think I've stopped categorizing years as a whole. I just take each moment as they come and go or try to. I try my best at the year and usually by the end of it I'm so exhausted that I'm just glad for the rest. Life has really taken me by the horns and pulled me through the whirlwind I call 2024. I went to weddings galore, took so many planes I lost count and found magic where I could. I turned 30 in 2024 and what that has only taught me is that I know nothing at all and the older I get the less I know. I see all these creators talking about their "30 lessons by 30" but the final lesson none of us tell you is that we don't know shit and we're all just figuring it out too. Some have it more figured out than others though so there's that, cheers to those fools. I at 30 am just confident enough to say that in this moment, I am just more unsure than anything.
At 30, I have single friends, married friends, friends with owned homes, friends with babies and wanting more and friends becoming parents. Literally all the stages of life happening in the blink of an eye, I think turning 30 is my transitory age. The transition to a different chapter. If I could categorize 20's it was maturity. 20 was maturing and recognising one's own boundaries. I am so grateful for my 20's and all that I've gone through because it's made me who I am. I will say looking back I at times feel a loss, for those pandemic years and a query maybe I wouldn't be where I am right now.... or maybe I am perfectly where I am meant to be.
Sometimes that's just how life is. No wondering what if's and or buts.. just the now, the present. And as cheesy as it sounds maybe that's why it's called the present, because the present is a gift. As much as I try to remind myself to stay present, be in the present. I will say life gets tough and sometimes you get lost in the sauce. I can't count on my hand how many times I've lost the big picture. Losing the big picture is hard, at least for a dreamer like me. I need the big dreams and big pictures to get me through and even if I don't end up there it still pushes me forward but as of late I've honestly lost the big picture, the point of it all and as this year turns I fear I feel what many have felt. That it is just another day and another year gone. Time keeps moving and you just have to get on the ride or be swept up by the tide. Welcome to the tides of life kiddo - sometimes it's beautiful and sometimes you get swept out to sea. 2024 a year of tides turning and changing and I'm somehow still here.
