The Winged Scribe

NOVEMBER 9, 2020

TLDR; I’m here to help, what can I do for you?

I started my spiritual journey a long time ago.  I’m in my thirties now so you can only imagine how much I’ve been through over the years.  Many years ago I used tumblr to explore one avenue of belief that has since become incorporated into my life and in doing so set me on the path I am today.  That, however, is a story in and of itself that I will tell later.  Right now I want to introduce myself and explain what this journal is going to be about.  My “mission statement” if you will.

Recently, I began to once more reach out to old ethereal friends.  I’d taken a sabbatical in my spiritual self-improvement and study.  I felt like I wasn’t worthy of returning to once more gain wisdom from the angels I’d previously met and worked with, but they didn’t seem to share my opinion of myself.  My reconnection began in the summer of this year after I lost my job due to Covid.  I was going through a very hard time with the upheaval in my life and I also had plenty of time on my hands.  A few chance happenings and I turned down this path once more.

Its not been easy.  I suffer from depression, severe social anxiety, and PTSD and the negativity in my life outweighed the positive.  It sometimes still does.  I have bad days, my friends get me through; both those on the earthly plane and those that exist within the ether.  Perhaps that is part of why I’ve been directed to begin this.  

There are many out there that feel alone and like they have nowhere to turn.  They are outside what convention says is normal and its difficult to connect, much less believe that someone actually cares about your well-being.  But they do.  There are those out there that care about you and love you that you’ve never met.  Comrades-in-arms in the battle against a world that seems to want to smother all the life out of you and squash you down.  If that’s you, I think you’re why I’m here.  

I don’t fit into any sort of box, whether it be socially, spiritually, or psychologically.  For most of my life I’ve felt like I’ve been spiraling through space trying desperately to grasp onto anything that gave me even a moment of stability.  I’m not an expert and I’m still learning.  In fact, I’m re-learning things.  I had to forget everything I thought I knew, erase old belief systems that had gummed up the works, and now I’m starting back at the beginning.  I’ve been through Hell, I got the t-shirt, and returned stronger and wiser (at least not as naive).  

I may not know the fancy terminology or the histories of magickal symbols or any of that sort of thing (although I want to learn them!).  I skipped over that in my crash course of surviving the mistake of meddling with things I didn’t understand.  But I do have experience with mistakes, and I’ve learned a few hard lessons over the years I could perhaps impart.  I also know what its like to be lost with no compass in a storm that doesn’t seem to have an end.  I’ve been there, so maybe I can help someone else find their way out, or at least point them in the right direction (for them).

This is already getting longer than I intended for an introduction.  There is so much I still need to say and so much I want to say.  That can come later.  Right now, back onto what this journal is about.  Its to chronicle my continuing spiritual journey, help others, and connect.  Human connection is something I’ve always had trouble with.  I also feel like its something I need to do.  This is a reason to get moving every day, a purpose to guide me.  But it also terrifies me.  My beliefs have always been very private because of how unconventional they are.  I’ve always been afraid of what others would think.  Would they call me a fool, a liar, crazy, or just deluded?  

Fear is the mind killer.  It’s one of my favorite quotes and it is so true.  I’ve been planning this journal for months actually.  Working, pausing, stopping completely, trying again.  Finally I’ve reached a point of courage where I think I can begin.  Last night, I had a “discussion” with Archangel Michael about if what I was thinking of doing was the right path for me.  It’s been on my mind constantly all these months.  I feel guided toward this.  The conversation that was had is a private one, but it left me feeling optimistic.  No holding back.  It’s time for complete honesty about what I believe is the truth.  My truth.  If you can get something out of it as well, then I am very happy to provide that for you.

In addition to my personal journey I plan to offer some services to those that need or want them.  I’ve always had a penchant for divination and so I would love to begin tarot and oracle card readings.  In another post I’ll go over the divination tools I currently have and what there is to choose from if anyone is interested.  Logistics aside, this is a very exciting time for me.  I’m hopeful and looking forward to what this project can become for myself and possibly for others.  I was assured that I would help others doing this, and even if that’s just a couple people, that’s enough for me to try.