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@the-spectator-offical
I didn't deserve that. You knew it too.
Call me the Spectator, darlings. I sit, wait, and observe. All things come in time, you simply must be patient.
I have many talents, but my unnatural abilities are phobokinesis, control of fear; biokinesis, control of life; and umbrakinesis, control of shadows.
I use he/they.
I am pansexual, but why is it your business to know?
I hope we do not meet again.
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And so the first act ends.
See you in the next chapter, my dears~
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Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
"I- thank you-
Could-
I'd like hugs, please."
Specs practically scoops Rasine into his arms.
"You never have to ask."
Rasine relaxed further, hugging Specs back.
"Thank you- you make me feel safe."
"I don't see how, but I'll take your word for it."
"Well-
I love you. And it makes me feel safer. To know that you love me too. When I'm with you."
"I love you so much, Ras."
"And I love you more!"
He said, smiling, teasing slightly.
"I love you most."
"Hey-! I love you more than most, then!"
"I love you mosteeeest~"
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
"I- thank you-
Could-
I'd like hugs, please."
Specs practically scoops Rasine into his arms.
"You never have to ask."
Rasine relaxed further, hugging Specs back.
"Thank you- you make me feel safe."
"I don't see how, but I'll take your word for it."
"Well-
I love you. And it makes me feel safer. To know that you love me too. When I'm with you."
"I love you so much, Ras."
"And I love you more!"
He said, smiling, teasing slightly.
"I love you most."
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
"I- thank you-
Could-
I'd like hugs, please."
Specs practically scoops Rasine into his arms.
"You never have to ask."
Rasine relaxed further, hugging Specs back.
"Thank you- you make me feel safe."
"I don't see how, but I'll take your word for it."
"Well-
I love you. And it makes me feel safer. To know that you love me too. When I'm with you."
"I love you so much, Ras."
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Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
"I- thank you-
Could-
I'd like hugs, please."
Specs practically scoops Rasine into his arms.
"You never have to ask."
Rasine relaxed further, hugging Specs back.
"Thank you- you make me feel safe."
"I don't see how, but I'll take your word for it."
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
"I- thank you-
Could-
I'd like hugs, please."
Specs practically scoops Rasine into his arms.
"You never have to ask."
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
"I- I didn't used to- I'm not supposed to-"
He tensed again, worried.
"Ras. It's really fine. I'm not angry with you, or upset, or anything. It's not your fault you forgot."
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
"Specs! Oh- I'm so glad to see you-"
He instantly seemed to relax, more comfortable.
"I- You said you'd remind me if I forgot anything that happened when I was with you-
I barely remember our conversation..? It's.. I shouldn't have forgotten it- I'm sorry-"
"Oh, sweetheart... It's okay to forget things," Specs purrs, voice strained from the screaming match he just had with someone who will not be named.
Leaving his room, hesitating and seeming unsure, Rasine started wandering the lair, calling out softly, shakily.
"Specs-?"
Shadows pool near Rasine, solidifying into the Spectator.
"Yes, my beloved?"
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A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
*Savi relaxes a bit, tense posture melting away*
*continues stroking Specs’ bangs*
The Spectator moves to kiss the top of Savi's head again.
*blushes bright pink*
I-I thought you thought it was too soon for that-
"It's a forehead kiss, Savi. It's fine."
*blushes even more*
Yeah-yeah that’s fair-
"You're gorgeous, by the way."
*flustered but smiling, still very much blushing*
H-hey, stop that!
"Never."
*raises eyebrows*
Never?
"Your smile is so radiant that all the stars in the sky couldn't outshine it."
A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
*Savi relaxes a bit, tense posture melting away*
*continues stroking Specs’ bangs*
The Spectator moves to kiss the top of Savi's head again.
*blushes bright pink*
I-I thought you thought it was too soon for that-
"It's a forehead kiss, Savi. It's fine."
*blushes even more*
Yeah-yeah that’s fair-
"You're gorgeous, by the way."
*flustered but smiling, still very much blushing*
H-hey, stop that!
"Never."
A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
*Savi relaxes a bit, tense posture melting away*
*continues stroking Specs’ bangs*
The Spectator moves to kiss the top of Savi's head again.
*blushes bright pink*
I-I thought you thought it was too soon for that-
"It's a forehead kiss, Savi. It's fine."
*blushes even more*
Yeah-yeah that’s fair-
"You're gorgeous, by the way."
A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
*Savi relaxes a bit, tense posture melting away*
*continues stroking Specs’ bangs*
The Spectator moves to kiss the top of Savi's head again.
*blushes bright pink*
I-I thought you thought it was too soon for that-
"It's a forehead kiss, Savi. It's fine."
A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
*Savi relaxes a bit, tense posture melting away*
*continues stroking Specs’ bangs*
The Spectator moves to kiss the top of Savi's head again.
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A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
*takes a breath, then moves stroke Specs’ bangs*
You won’t lose me.
The Spectator purrs, his eyes drifting shut.
"Good."
A presence gathers in Savi's workroom, lingering near him. It feels cold, but not hostile.
@the-spectator-offical
*Savi, who has obsessively been fidgeting with his gadgets, turns around, looking on alert but for some reason not putting his hand to his gun*
Whoever it is, come out! I-I’ve had enough surprises as it is.
The Spectator — surprisingly — complies, forming from the shadows and leaning against a wall. His arms are crossed. He remains quiet, an unsettling two-dimensional grin plastered onto his mask.
Good. I’d hoped I wasn’t just talking to air.
*Savi narrows his eyes, studying him and trying not to appear unsettled*
*he gets to his feet and turns to fully face the Spectator*
What do you want?
"To talk." The Spectator's voice is rough, scratchy, but calm. "This is a discussion I'd like to have on my terms."
*Savi tilts his head back, still studying him, a bit unnerved*
And what’s that supposed to mean? You broke into my lair, I’d be interested in knowing how to say the least, but you want to talk? Go ahead…
You-you have my attention now, I’ll give you that.
"Your security system let me in," the Spectator rasps. "I did not break in."
*furrows his brow*
It shouldn’t have done that.
Unless…
*thinking*
Hypothetically…it could’ve malfunctioned due to…recent occurrences.
But you then snuck all the way here to see me?
*grins sardonically*
Hey, I’m flattered, but I have to know why.
"It wasn't a malfunction, of that I can assure you. Need I unmask myself so soon?"
The Spectator's head tilts.
*Savi frowns again, hand drifting along his belt to his gun but again hesitating and pulling it away*
That would be appreciated, but simultaneously maybe I don’t want to know…
Can you tell me what it is you want from me exactly? Since no matter how you got in, you’re still technically intruding.
"I honestly just want to talk."
The Spectator reaches both hands behind his head, unclasping his mask. He carefully pulls it down and away with one hand while the other tugs at his hood.
...Well. Isn't that a familiar face? Scarred, tired, and less cheerful, but painfully recognizable.
The only obvious difference is the lack of white in his bangs.
*Savi stumbles back and lets out a strangled gasp*
*whispers*
…R-Ray?
"I prefer to be called the Spectator now. You may refer to me as Specs, if you so desire." The Spectator smiles. It doesn't quite reach his eyes, more for show than it is genuine.
*in a stunned, dazed silence for a moment before snapping out of it and putting a hand to his head*
No no no no no-
But-
But Everest-
Everest said they were-
That they were-
*feels like this must be some kind of trick but the tiniest bit hopeful*
So…so you’re alright? You remember-
*frowns again*
But-
Everest remembers-
*shakes head, trying to make sense of this and takes an involuntary step back*
You came here to talk.
Explain.
"Everest is in my body. My soul was ejected, and he lost solid memory of my life. I remember everything about myself. I also don't particularly enjoy being pulled out of my own body. But if Everest dies, so do I. So he has to live. I'm sorry, Savi, that I wasn't present when you were dragged out of the past. I've been... watching. Spectating. My orchids don't listen to Everest, and he isn't arcane enough to control them anyways. So they were my eyes when I wasn't there."
*blinks, softening a bit but trying to hide it*
…oh. I-
I see…
So that little orchid dragon…? They have something to do with you…?
*tilts head ever so slightly*
And so you know, I like the new name.
Specs' eyes dart away for a moment before he looks back.
"Styx? Uh. Yeah. She... Everest accidentally gave her frostbite when he ran off upon losing my memories. So she didn't come out right. Their eyes— can't see anything through them. They're blind. But they're still one of my Watchers. My orchid dragons — they deserve so much more than what I can give."
The Spectator seems soft when he talks about his orchids.
*Savi lights up and rambles a bit*
Styx? That’s their name?
I—yes, I assumed she was blind…I-I tried to take care of her as well as I could…I do really adore her-I’m sure you give them so much, R-Specs-
*frowns and goes back to looking a bit wary*
*softly*
So you-you’re really Ray? Not just some imposter here to torment me? Is-is there a way you could give me proof?
"My blood. It grows plants. Unfortunately, Everest has my dagger. Got anything sharp?"
*hesitates, then holds up a sharp shard of metal*
Would this work?
"Probably." Specs holds his hand out.
*hesitates before carefully placing the metal into Specs’ hand*
The Spectator drives a sharp point into his wrist, striking a vein. Toxic ichor is drawn to the surface. Where it drops and hits the ground, various plants start growing.
"...This started happening after Memorial attacked me. You stabbed me as a way to save me, which neutralized the toxins in my blood. However, it also sealed that very same poison within me. And that manifested as phytokinesis, which has evolved to biokinesis — control of life."
"...What's the latest interaction with me you recall?"
*takes a breath*
I see…
The-the pizza party?
"Hm. I recall that. It was hectic. Just... Just makes me miss my old base more, though."
*smiles slightly*
Yeah…yeah it was…
*smile fades*
I didn’t even know you’d lost it…I’m sorry…
"I'm the one who burned it down. But I had to."
*shakes head*
I…I see…
*takes a tentative step closer*
*softly*
And…and you? R-Specs, what happened to you?
"...A lot. The easiest summary is 'the past always comes back to haunt me'."
*hesitant around Specs, unsure how to react to him or interact with him now*
…I-I’m sorry…you’ve been through so much…Rasine and Everest told me a bit…
"...I should have been here for you."
Specs can't make himself look at Savi.
*shakes head*
It’s not your fault.
But could I ask how you’re only able to come back now? I’m very glad you are-
It’s nice to have someone who remembers my from a month ago
I was just…wondering…how.
"I'm the Spectator, Savi. I spectate. I was not supposed to intervene."
*Savi takes another step toward him*
But how did you become the Spectator? And how can you intervene now?
Specs shrugs. "I did it willingly. I was given a chance to be myself again, so I took it. I'm breaking every rule I gave myself by talking to you. Also, uh... I kind of toyed with Everest a bit? He's a little scratched up now."
*glances at the ground*
I’m very happy you’re here.
*looks up startled*
He…y-you hurt Everest?
"Just grabbed him. The worst I did was froze his cells in place for a couple seconds. He looked so scared, but I only feel a little guilty. He stole my body. He stole my emotions. He stole you and Rasine. He will not take from me again."
*looks a bit startled by this but then nods, thinking*
So…so what is Everest exactly then?
"He's... someone else. His soul forced mine out. He's a person who both lived and died a long time ago."
…oh.
I see…
*looks troubled*
Rasine loves him…
I-I liked him myself but…I..
*feels his cheeks turning pink*
*mumbles*
I really like you…
"I'm glad you do, Savi. I love you so dearly."
*looks hesitant but smiles*
I…I think I’m glad of that too…
"...You deserve better than everything that's happened. Everything that will continue to happen."
*shakes head and takes a small step back*
That’s not true. But I-I appreciate it anyway.
"You do, though. And I mean that."
No. I don’t. But thanks for saying so…
"...You're not a monster, Savi. And you don't deserve to be treated like one."
*looks away*
If you really knew me, you’d know that wasn’t true…
You-you always deserved better than me.
"Monsters don't save helpless tiny dragons. You did. You have so much good in you that you've crushed down. But you deserve the world. And if I could give it, it would be yours."
*for a split second it looks like Savi might cry, then the look is gone*
*quietly, touched*
You…you don’t need to say that…
"It is rare that I say something I don't mean. I wanted to say that, Savi, because it's true."
It’s not…
But I-I’m flattered you think so.
"It is."
*shakes head*
I’m a monster, Ray-
*quickly*
I’m sorry. Specs. The two timelines are mixed up in my head…
Why do you think I avoided you so much? Neither you or Rasine seems to get that…
"Clearly you haven't seen monstrous, my darling rose. You're not even half of enough to be called a monster." Spectator doesn't comment on the timeline thing.
*blushes a bit at ‘my darling rose’ but shakes head*
You…you don’t know everything I’ve done…Specs…
*looks away*
We should change topics. There’s no point in talking about me.
"You don't know any of what I've done. But alright, a change of topic. Ah... Styx imprinted on you. They think you're their mom."
I-they-what?!
But-but I just-
What?
"...It was before you died. Well— the you that existed in the recent past. Everest fucking frostbit them. You kept them alive during metamorphosis, and they imprinted on you."
Oh…
I…I see…
They’re rather sweet but I-
*mutters*
I’m afraid I’ll hurt them too.
"You won't. I promise you won't. She's far more resilient than you think, for such a small flower."
*looks a bit more relaxed, then smiles sheepishly*
So I’m a mom now, am I?
"Didn't you already have adopted kids? Plus Bam and Iris. I think you had that role long before Styx."
Yeah, I mean technically I’ve been a dad, but they were adopted after-well after I can remember.
I’m still getting used to them.
*frowns and tilts head*
…Bam and Iris?
"...My kids. Bam's adopted, but they're still just as much my kid as Iris is."
You-you have kids…
I didn’t know-
"Yeah. Bam... doesn't seem to appreciate Everest being near them. I noticed they've started rebuilding walls I thought were long demolished. Iris is okay with him, I think? But she knows he's not me. Not her papa."
I-I see-
I’m sorry…you haven’t…been able to be with them.
I’d like to meet them.
"...Ah, this is gonna hurt them. I don't think they know you died yet."
Oh-
*looks nervous*
I-I didn’t think of that-
"...They'll be happy to see you anyways."
*softly*
A-and you don’t think I’d hurt them…?
"You helped take care of Iris before she was brought into the Celestials. Not once did you hurt her. I know you won't cause any harm."
*seems uncertain*
That…that wasn’t me though…
That was…future-p-past?-me.
"It was still you."
*shakes head, looking panicked*
But-but it wasn’t, Specs, it wasn’t me-
I never went through everything ‘future me’ went through, I never became who he became, someone w-worthy of your a-and Rasine’s love-
Of a-any of your trust or admiration!
I’m just a wreck of a supervillain! I’m not the same!
*looks almost tearful*
Spectator pulls Savi into a hug.
"This is still the you I fell for. The you that caught my eye immediately. The you I trusted without a doubt."
*stunned for a moment, then buried his head against Specs’ shoulder, hugging him back*
*takes a breath*
*softly*
I love you…
"I love you too, my darling rose. I missed you terribly." Specs presses a kiss to the top of Savi's head.
*closes his eyes, actually seeming happy*
I-I missed you too…
Specs sighs into Savi's hair.
"It hurt to be away for so long. To be unable to reach you, unable to hold you... It burned."
*Savi lets out a soft hum*
I…I missed you…too…when I thought Ev was you…and had forgotten…I-I wanted you to remember me…the little time we’d had together…
But-but you don’t ever have to be away from us again. Rasine and I-
Oh-
*concerned*
How-how are we going to break this to Rasine?
"I'll tell them. It'll be easier to do it myself. Especially if I can get my dagger back from Sparks..."
*blinks, reluctantly pulling away slightly to look at him*
Sparks?
"Everest."
Oh-
Why’d you call him Sparks?
"Just thought it fit. His whole deal is machinery. He depends on it because he's weak in both the physical aspect and the arcane."
*testing but hides it*
I-hey-I-I rely on machines a lot! You think I’m weak in the physical and arcane aspects?
"No. He only got into it specifically to make up for it. His machines are to make up for what he can't do."
And you think mine aren’t? I started making them when I was a weak little four-year-old who had no clue I was half-demon, so…
*grins slightly*
Kinda sounds like you think I’m weak.
"Without them, his body will collapse in on itself. He's resilient to attacks, but he still can't stand without mechanical assistance. All his magical prowess comes from extreme amplifiers. And when it does get powerful, he can't control it."
Huh…I-I see…
*smirks*
Still feels like you’re trying to insult me.
"Oh, my darling rose, I would never." The Spectator grins.
*Savi grins back*
Never?
"Cross my heart and hope to die, I swear I'll never seriously insult you. Playfully, maybe. But I'll never mean it."
*looks down*
I was just teasing, Specs…but-but I’m glad anyway.
"I know. I still mean what I said, Savi."
*Savi blinks then hugs Specs tightly*
Specs holds Savi close, eyes falling shut. He sighs, content.
*Savi hesitates, then leans into him, relaxing a bit*
*whispers into him*
…I-I love you…
"I know. I love you too, and so much more than you could ever comprehend."
*nods shakily*
I won’t let anything ever happen to you a-again, alright? A-and I’m sorry-I’m sorry I didn’t realize you weren’t Everest-
I…
*trails off, slightly unsure*
I’m sorry if I’m…bad at this…I’ve never loved anyone other than Rasine.
"That's alright, sweetheart. I know. And you can't make sure nothing ever happens."
*grits teeth*
Yes I can.
"You. Can't. Do. Anything. About certain things. Most things."
*determinedly*
Try me.
"My boss has control of this narrative and can make me do whatever the fuck he wants if he gets hold of my strings."
*shakes head*
I-I would-find a way-
"Darling. You can't."
*grits teeth*
I can. I’ll d-do anything to protect you! I need you!
"Savi Lucas Erebus. There is nothing you can do against this type of power."
*shakes head fervently*
I can-
I c-can-
I don’t care what kind of power-
"Helio's Corruption can oppose the threads of a Celestial. My boss's control overrode the Corruption lingering in my heart."
*shakes head*
I-I don’t know what any of that means, but I will find a way to protect you, regardless!
"THERE IS NOTHING ANYONE CAN DO."
Do you know me well enough to know how fucking stubborn I am, Specs?
I won’t take no for an answer. I will figure something out.
"That will get you killed. If I must, I will remove myself from your presence and not return. Do not try to go after the undefeatable."
I-
I-
*folds arms and looks away*
…I won’t.
"I can't lose you again."
And you think I could lose you?!
*kisses Specs*
The Spectator places a hesitant hand on Savi's lower back to keep him close once he draws away. It's now that this has started feeling wrong to him.
"Savi... You barely know me as you are... Are- are you certain of this...? Of me?"
*pulls away, hesitating, still very close to Specs*
I loved you when I knew you-
I can’t help but love you now-
But, I-I mean, if this isn’t what you want then of course I’ll understand!
Specs draws in a shuddering breath.
"Of course I want this! I want to call you my lover. But it feels I have no right to. Not... Not like this."
The Spectator seems conflicted.
*pulls fully away now, looking down*
*trying not to sound bitter*
I get it. I’m not him.
I never will be.
At least you realize that and you don’t want to kill me. The only other person who sees that is Cain…
( @the-spectator-offical nudgeeee)
"It's not that. Savi. I loved you from the start. But you barely know me; you've barely had time to interact with me. You knew Ray more. You only just met Specs. You're going down a different path from the Savi I lost, but I will love you regardless."
*takes a few steps back*
I-I’m sorry-
I didn’t mean to-
I’m sorry-
*turns to go*
Specs uses the harpoon-like tip of his tail to pull Savi back against himself.
"Where are you going, darling rose? You don't need to leave. I'd rather keep you close."
*Savi is startled, blushing, silent for a moment*
*stammers*
I-I just thought-
"...You just thought what...?"
You…you said it didn’t feel right when I-I kissed you-
I figured-
I-I was…making you uncomfortable or something…
So I should go…
"I also said I loved you from the start, and will continue to love you."
*sputters, still flustered from Specs’ tail grabbing him and pulling him back against him*
Yeah, I-I know-
I just wasn’t sure-
Didn’t want to-
"I would walk the fieriest pits of Hell for you."
*blushes*
I…I don’t know why…but I appreciate that…but I just figured you-you might want to-
Have some space from me-
Since I’m not the same-
"I can't lose you again, I can't-"
